I want to start  
Relentlessly living,
Traveling the world,
With my dog and fat ***.
Finding people
Who pull out a chair,
offer what they have;
A seat at their table
Just for me
A seat at their table
Because I’m me.

Your silence was so deafening
it made my ears bleed
when it got too loud.

But now that I’ve
heard you again,
I see
it was only a self inflicted wound


I once saw you as a gentle man,
until your mouth and ego
popped their heads from the sand.

Oh, how I wish
you could take it all back
be as sweet
as I know you can.

The bronze boy
who held my mind
the only man
I could stand.

I wish you’d set
your bitterness aside
and learn
to enjoy this ride.

You’re far too precious
to be a victim
of your own pride.

They say be careful
what you wish for
you just might get it.

I’ve taken three trips
around the sun
wanting you.

This morning
You reached out.
Now I don’t know
what to do.

Do I let if flow
Free fall
As we go?
Hairs raised
Eyes alert,
Look out for
Upcoming hurt?

Stiff as board
Just say no,
Just let it go?
Stay focused
on me,
continue to grow
my own tree?

Oh I wish
I knew exactly
What to do.

To have a heart
that’s shared love
Is an awfully tough
Mountain to move.

I was once curiously asked:
"Why write poetry?
Does it pay the bills?"

I replied with a smile:
"It does far more than that -
it heals."

I fell from grace
When i burnt it
all to the ground.
You told me to never
Contact you again;
Ripping me from your life
like I was your biggest sin.

But the thing
with unspoken fears,
They’re fueled by betrayal,
And burn for years.

someone once told me
before you **** yourself,
**** your life.

so I slit that ******* throat
and watched it die.