I cried over a text,
You sent too slow.
Pouted in the dark,
All alone.
Gathered the facts
I thought it would last.
In the meantime,
I turned to stone.

I liked my days
With only you.
You said yourself
We fit like glue.
The eyes don’t lie
And neither did you.
Ever since you looked
Into mine,
I’ve been falling in blue.

I have flashbacks of us
And all our quirks.
The way you always
Came to me.
You knew my heart
told me it was good.
We felt it in the silence,
Always understood.
I can still be the girl
Who makes you feel,
Like the only one
in the world.

it took me 8 years to see it,
until one day on a random walk.
you'd be the biggest threat to my life,
the biggest war i ever fought.

you locked me out,
to keep the peace you could.
turning my gaze into glares,
because no one understood.
but what if what comes to light,
could silence the entire neighborhood?

i took the swing,
to try to rip you from your throne.
you gathered the troops,
threw me out of my own home.
i went down screaming,
as you silenced my voice.
the city determined i was crazy,
leaving me without a choice.

the good ol boys and morally
righteous got in line.
everyone has a soul,
until their bought by your father's dime.
giving you a hand,
as you brushed off the dirt.
boys from families like yours,
always withstand the hurt.

it took me 8 years to see it,
until one random day.
my truth will come out in your actions,
more than any lies you could ever say.

I miss you in music,
and shared excitement.
The love for nights
and pointless hysterics,
just for the hell of it.
You took over me
the way bass floods your body
In your favorite song,
In that moment, you belong.

I woke to piano,
Fell asleep to you breathing,
My head on your chest.
You said you couldn’t sleep right,
Without me.
Before we went to bed,
Our routine was to brush our teeth.
We’d wake to
strawberry fields forever.

my smile Inspired
The music in your hands.
You wrote songs about me,
You were my piano man.
Before the music stopped,
the future was ours.
We look into each others eyes,
To map our stars.
I’ll never forget,
the first time you called me beautiful,
We sat around the fire,
As you played me your guitar.

I can be a lot of fun
until you get to know me.
You’ll want me around
for a good time,
But never long enough
for the keep.

You’ll eventually think I’m mean
because I love to hate men.
I go from 0 to 100,
And I never think twice
before I hit send.

If only I could learn to let **** go.
Learn how to trust someone
for who they are,
Instead of having them
pay the same debts,
from the same old scars.

They say healing is lonely
But they never tell you
That the silence
will suffocate you.
Pressing down on
every square inch
Of your body.
Forcing you to feel
the weight of letting go
of who you were
For who you need to be.

fourth of july,
night sky.
sparkling lights
ands fireflies.
hands together,
and you were mine.
we smoked,
until we could fly.
i never felt,
so right.

two years later,
youre not around.
but when i look
to the sky,
it’s the fourth of july.
sparkling lights
and fireflies.
i never felt
so right.

fourth of july,
night sky.
sparkling lights
ands fireflies.
hands together,
and you were mine.
we smoked,
until we could fly.
i never felt,
so right.

two years later,
youre not around.
but when i look to the sky,
on the fourth of july,
im back with you,
in our small town.