Now that the smoke has lifted,
I can finally see clear.
All that’s left is a coward with intellect,
Hiding behind a well manicured beard.
He exuded confidence when he needed,
He knew how to take control.
He mastered how to play lifes games,
He never shied to walk away and fold.
His poker face deceived the masses,
All while his eyes remained stone cold.
Each play he made was calculated,
Each move he made was meant to scold.
When picking a new love interest,
He looked for those easily controlled.
I was the perfect good girl just for him;
Rhetorical and defiant in the streets,
Submissive and indecisive in the sheets.
He dangled his love like he was handing out treats,
Only to ****** them back in total defeat.
He got off on this kind of ****
Because deep down he was still a little boy.
Standing on his tip toes instead of just freely playing with his toys.
Subjected to life with cruel ways,
He gave up his innocence far before he ever had a say.
He used women to feed his need for peace,
He said I went from 0 to 100,
He never could trust me.
I fought back when he wanted me to sit,
I gave him redirection and accountability,
I made him feel things that he couldn’t fit.
I made him say things he wouldn’t admit,
I sat him down, I made him feel like the kid.
The one he buried and hid,
The one who was disregarded by life, amid.