An email from my old music school arrived,
Missing another concert, not feeling revived.
Keening for the first piano, played from my core,
Can't be there anymore.

Missing the feeling of freshly printed scores,
Orchestra setting, violins left, cellos right, on the floor.
The conductor nodding, counting to four,
Memories, a timeline's reminder, galore.

Photo with my guitar on the wall so fine,
Part of that place, a memory that's mine.
My music imprinted, a bit of my soul's design,
Post-class sodas with lime.

Playing in summer, autumn, spring, and in the rain,
As if the clouds heard, playing Chopin, crying again.
Raindrops enjoying our music, on their transient lane,
Instruments, perhaps, missing me, a refrain.

Hard to leave, always a grief,
One more hour, to play there, a belief.
Being naive, it's far away, but my piano is near,
Playing all night, hoping the walls might hear.

Eight years have passed, and she lingers in my mind,
Fate uncrossed, leaving some connections undefined.
We didn't make it then, a love confined,
Some aren't simply left behind.

Clear on the first date, good-hearted and kind,
Tried to turn love to hate, a futile bind.
Never succeeding, every attempt declined,
Believing she was rude, but in truth, so refined.

Tried to convince myself she never understood what I mean,
But she was sweet, the sweetest, as it has always been.
Adorable in hoodies, fall's serene,
Charming all in a wedding hall scene.

Her void remains, an everlasting emptiness,
An unbreakable connection, an emotional fortress.
Melt to her perfection, my heart's confession,
Re-firing her affection, a recurring obsession.

Memories held between the lines of scores,
Cold chills to the core, music's open doors.
Laughs at guitar lessons, moments that implore,
Keenness to times when music filled my essence, a love to explore.

Walls resonating with my presence,
Playing music, an obsession, a lifelong essence.
Drumming jamming sessions, a rhythmic coalescence,
Piano surrendering to accelerando progression.

First show-off to the crush,
Few chords and a wink, making her blush.
A look that can't grasp enough,
Beats on, lights off, into the black hush.

Shut your eyes, turn on music, teleporting back,
Feel warmth in your heart, a familiar track.
Sync heartbeats to the song, a connection intact,
Hold your breath, stay in, before it all goes slack.

Walked in, saw him caressing her hair,
My heart cried out, firing its desperate flare.
Stepped back, wan face vanishing into thin air,
The love of my life might soon be in his arms somewhere.

The thought gave me a scare,
Messed it up a hundred times with her.
A pinch sweet, a ton of selfish, an unkind affair,
A million careless, love slipping into thin air.

Losing the only true one,
She finds the current state despicable, nothing can be done.
Fixing needs time, she won't wait, it's undone,
Chances diminishing, the heart now weighs a ton.

Forever numb, cut loose,
Left with nothing but smokes and *****.
In the shadows, emotions diffuse,
A heartbroken soul, paying life's dues.