Its not my fault
Yet every accusing finger points my way
I did what I could
It wasn't enough to stop the monster
The monsters hands
Down goes my pants
I couldn't scream
My voice lost as I try escaping the horror
Now you make me carry it
The darkness in my stomach growing
I never wanted this
Now everytime I look at this thing
All I see is him
The monster
The truama
This thing was not made by love
But society would blame me
Make me the monster
While the real monster is still walking free
Doing unspeakable things

Scream
Scream
Scream
Scream until they listen
We cant stay silent now
There is no use in normal conversation
They dont listen
They dont want to listen
So our only choice is to make them
Scream until your throath is sore
Scream until they listen
Dont you ever let them take away your voice
Your voice is powerful
Its time you use it

Drown in the darkness
Let it wrap its cold hands around you
Its warmer than any hug from this world
I'm not afraid of the darkness anymore
Because this time I know I'm alone
Alone with me, myself and I
Drowning in my own thoughts
The air leaving my lungs
One last breath
Feeling my heart beat slowly come to an end

Food was never the problem
Neither was overweight or sosial media
It was something wrong with me
I was the problem
The older I got, the sadder I got
So being hungry, ruining my body
It was all a way to hurt myself
How my body looked didn't matter
I just wanted it to suffer
Watching myself decay
Rotting
The hole in my stomach growing bigger
Never getting filled
Yet it was never noticed
One thing I know for sure
I will never be the same again

I search for you everywhere
You were supposed to stay here
Every stranger
Every flower
Every time I go to sleep
I search for you
Even the smallest sign that you're here
Is enough to keep me going
Deep down I know you're not really here
But I know I'll always keep hoping
Hoping to find you