Isabella Engseth

Isabella Engseth 1d

Selfish

If its selfish of me to leave
Then its selfish to make me stay
The person in pain continues to carry it
Just so that you wont have to
How is that any less selfish?
Everyday you see them
Half a ghost walking around
You want them to stay
Yet you do nothing to help
Guilt and dilemmas
Pain and gain
Day in and day out
You cant make someone stay
if they dont want to
You can try
But there is no garantee it works

Isabella Engseth 1d

Hole in my stomach

Food was never the problem
Neither was overweight or sosial media
It was something wrong with me
I was the problem
The older I got, the sadder I got
So being hungry, ruining my body
It was all a way to hurt myself
How my body looked didn't matter
I just wanted it to suffer
Watching myself decay
Rotting
The hole in my stomach growing bigger
Never getting filled
Yet it was never noticed
One thing I know for sure
I will never be the same again

Isabella Engseth 1d

Hoping to find you

I search for you everywhere
You were supposed to stay here
Every stranger
Every flower
Every time I go to sleep
I search for you
Even the smallest sign that you're here
Is enough to keep me going
Deep down I know you're not really here
But I know I'll always keep hoping
Hoping to find you

Isabella Engseth 2d

Wasted potensial of a dreamer

You can wish upon a star
But that doesn't mean you'll make it far
To get to the top and into the spotlight
You've got to do more than work
You have to fight
To earn that special spot among the stars
I've tried it, once, twice, trice
I always burn up before I get to shine
Wasted potensial of a dreamer who doesn't know when to give up
I hope one day I'll make it to the top

Isabella Engseth 2d

Love isn't supposed to hurt

Love isn't supposed to hurt

My face in the mirror
Bruised, swollen and unrecognizable
I keep telling myself you care
Every blooming bruise
Followed by another 'i love you'
Every hit and punch
Followed by the softest caress
Every insult spat at me
Followed by beatiful flowers
Love isn't supposed to hurt
Yet the smallest acts of love makes me stay
I love him so much that I'm unable to see the hatred he has for me

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