inverted soul

inverted soul Feb 4

i'm torn between
on what to do
but i do know that
i am through with you
this feeling that i feel
it's hard to subdue
why can't you bleed
in a different hue?
you're in my way
why won't you move?
i've grown so tired
and there is no excuse
i've gone away
before you withdrew
i left long ago
i thought that you knew
so i just do as i do
with you still in the room
i try to do it alone
because you just won't move

Written years ago, but edited with today's attitude

inverted soul Feb 4

IDK, i tried to call

i'm so confused
is it me?
or do you think it is you?
i don't know what to do
i just kinda wanna talk to you

are you building walls?
just don't want to talk at all?
are you starting to fall?
IDK, i tried to call

do you want to be just friends?
or someone to be there until the end?
do you need more time to mend?
cause i don't know what you intend

you said that you wouldn't disappear
are you scared, are you full of fear?
your voice is all that i want to hear
why won't you just reappear?

i ask will you tear down that wall
my ****** up head, says it's all my fault
i just want to talk that's all
please will you just give me a call

I walked around all day with my head in my *** just trying to think of the right thing to say

inverted soul Feb 4

even my shadow is sad

when i am so far down
that my troubles are blue
no lower to sink
i'm just as troubled as you

as i look all around
i soak up the rays
you stand right behind me
right there you stay

i hurt on the inside
you have got none
flat on the pavement
having no fun

i'm just the figure that cast
you are left beside
so dismal we feel
distressed and combined

we're faulty and fragile
to troubled to guide
we move to the darkness
so contrast can hide

just because i hurt
does not mean that you deserve
feeling no worth
just to exist and to observe

This is my first complete poem ever 20 years ago.

this one is deep as **** on sadness

inverted soul Feb 4

tangible spirit

an inverted soul

one you can touch

but out of control

forever is bent

and ever so cold

time stands still

as the spirit grows old

a moment now gone

it's been declined

left everything empty

feeling hollow inside

a soul in despair

forever confined

this thing is ******

it's time to hide

be aware of it's anger

all bite with no bark

this thing is real

it's leaving its mark

inverted soul Feb 3

for the best

build me up or tear me down
i will never make a sound
build me up or tear me down

run a dagger through my chest
i believe it's for the best

build me up or tear me down

rewind, recycle, repeat

that is what you did to me

inverted soul Feb 3

night things

i'm day dreaming of night things
in the middle of the afternoon
i'm lost in a wunderlust
i must be dreaming about you
don't wake me up
i won't know what to do
asleep in your arms
while i chase after you
am i even asleep?

i am so ******* confused?

when real meets surreal

i ripped off ***** on this one

inverted soul Feb 2

all that you do?

lucky you, how do you do all that you do and do it all with an untied shoe

what are you? i'm all confused?

are you about to come unglued?

for you to do all that you do and to do it all exactly on cue

like a statue that was born without ever a clue of what really to do

waiting for a passerby to pass on by to bring you back to life by lighting your fuse

so that you will have even more of nothing to do