You're not good for me
You make me happy when I was used to being miserable
I felt nothing and was content with that
I never needed anything
But now I know what happy is
What love it
You gave me that
You made me feel
That ache in my stomach
That pain in my chest
The heart ache when you're not here
Now I need you
Now I'm ******* to never let this feeling go
But I don't want the pain anymore
I want to feel numb
I miss it

The river at night looks beautiful
Thick almost one
With the light on it it looks like paint
Like ***** Wonka's chocolate factory
If I fell in it looks like it'd be soft
But I won't
Not because I have any regard for my own life
But because it would be a pity to disturb it

When you talk to new people
Or your friends
You can hear the country lad
When you go serious conversation
Or are mad at me
You can hear the city boy
When you're singing
Or whispering
You can hear some American
But whatever your accent is
You can hear the love towards me

I know we're forever
That I need you always
So believe me when I say it's not
That I wanted to leave you
Its that you would be better without me
Thank you for helping me see that
I was wrong

I'm missing you
My every thought consists of you're face
You're warmth
You're little beard that's actually quite soft
And when I see you again
I'll say everything I missed
Cause I know what it'll do
And I missed you're smile

I feel like my chest is filling with tar
I'm going deaf
I can barely notice anything real
And I'm screaming
Or trying to
And you don't notice
Nobody ever does
And I'm left hanging in the closet with my belt

I can look at the sky
And stare at it's endless beauty
But if your face isn't above
with the clouds
It all seems pointless
Without colour