I saw a star tonight
It glistened with absolute certainty
Such I have never felt
And it made me feel powerful
If was just oozing off you
Floating like fog that you could not contain
And it seeped into my skin
And made it glow like yours
You gave me that confidence to be new
Inventive and not scarred of who I am
I am different
And powerful
And proud
And although it is a sin
Let the devil give me power
You must be because although I have never met you
Your radiance
Like a star to a child
Has given all that I need
To be myself
I will never have your confidence
But I will have the power to be myself.
Thank you for reminding me of that.

Would you still like a flower
If it did not let you pick it
Would you still find the mist mesmerising
If you could catch it
Would you still want me
If all I wanted to do was talk
Would you be satisfied like me
Or would you carry on with someone new
Because I'm a friend
And that's all
I don't want to be picked
I just want the pleasure of your company
But that's not why you came
So I'm afraid
You'll have to endure your days without me
Because I don't want this
And I think I've found the power to say no

I believe my new favourite is time
When I'm in the bath
Although it was cold
No, warm
Cold-warm
And I thought about everything

The paleness of my legs
agains the bubbles
The millions of them didn't compare

I thought of the days events
And the prudish nature of my nanny
Brought out by the open nature of my aunt

I pondered the riddle
"Why is a raven like a writing desk"
But the author didn't have an answer
So why must I?
So I pondered no longer

My thoughts went back to bubbles
And how much fun they are to blow around the air
Without someone saying
"**** off"
Oh woh to be a child

The feeling of my hair living in the water
The touch addicting
Looks, mesmerising
The thrum of mini soldiers
In my ears as the push
The water out;
I'm sorry men
Just a little longer

And I think of getting out
And oh I don't want to
The waters gotten warmer
Probably from my own body heat
We find comfort in each others warmth
The bubbles are still alive
And I'm happy with my bath thoughts
But I must

I stand
I don't get out
I make funny faces in the mirror
Pull the towel around myself
And then slip out

I watch the water drain in a whirlpool
With all my fun bath thoughts

I don't have a bath at home
So I'll be sad to see them go

Oh the pests that do rattle my chain
If I am forced to be here
let the lie down dead before me
let me beat them with an iron rod
and I will stay quiet til death
But be rid of their tongues and teeth
and I will truly be happy
Allow me to close the window
on their head
And their blood will keep me satisfied.

When you have the perfect song
But no one to share it with
No one to sing along
To dance with you
To put it on
When you're putting yourself down
No one to find the meaning
With you
But when you find them
Keep them
Because who you give your song to
Is the ones you share your dreams with

I broke the light
so I could see grey,
I slept until the sky was raging
The dull world at that time
Highlighted every colour
that dyes the the beautiful things
In my eyes.
The girl looking like a Lophorina
Who's smile at a simple ballerina
shames all other flowers into buds.
The sparkle of the deer on the mantle
inked to graze without a care
In a blue winter
Makes me believe that was a time
before my kind
when piece was wonder,
now silence is a gift.
The shine of the leaves
blowing at the tip of the trees
looking confused,
But all just needing that movement
that cannot be found on the ground.
These gifts,
Created by God or an accident,
Are how I know that one day
i will be that deer that shines in the water
and settles in a breeze blue silence.

It's a reminder
Of the time I didn't die
That I laughed
Sure I was hurt
But the flowers that bloomed on my skin
Were so beautiful
That I stayed in hopes of seeing them next spring.

It's a reminder
Of all the effort I spent trying to hide them
Hiding my feelings
So as not to burden others
Or to not be swept away with last night dreams.

It's a reminder
And I'm not proud when people notice them
But I'm proud that they see me
Instead of the me pushing up daisies.