I am searching within for
some source of warmth
but it’s freezed over and
lost its touch. I’m trying to
keep ahold of my happiness
but it’s just not there. Something
inside me shifted. Something
changed. Something’s not
there. I have been on my knees
for far too long, but don’t mind
me, I’ll find it soon enough.

You see I have a funny way of making everything I say sound like poetry, but nothing sweet for the soul. It's words filled with heartache and pain I've hidden away for the last 10 years. Baby I've got skeletons too, they tell stories late at night when everyone's found their way into dreams that'll never come true. Baby I've got demons too, they visit me late at night when I'm tossin' and turnin'. I've got a heartache for two, a soul that's been bruised. I've never been much in your eyes but too everyone else, I'm the whole **** sky. Made up of shades of blue, but the sun don't shine here. I've got some things to say to you, none of the healing kind, more of the bruising kind. I could scream out all your lines if you gave me a moment of your time, but I wasn't worth the time. I'm just waiting for the sunshine.

Tell me about all the things
we cannot see. Guide my
hovering feet back to solid
ground. Tell me about all the
things I cannot see. Feed me
strength and a chance to breathe.
A hand to hold, a love to grow.
Tell me why I am on my knees.
I'll be the seed, let your rain wash
over me, give me life to grow.
Tell me about all the things we
cannot see, I am stuck in a hole
with nowhere to go. Pacing in
circles while their touching bases
with everything they'll ever know.
The world may burn, but I'll
never stick around to see. Tell
me about everything you detest
in me. I'll hold out a shaking
hand and follow you to the end.

You left feeling shameful,
with a fist full of regrets you
hope to put to rest. I bid my
time dreaming up things I
wish that would last. Because
what do I do when all hope
has passed? Tell me where to
go when I'm the one on my
hands and knees begging
for a sign to help me find my
way home again. I am lost,
praying not to be found. You
bid your time wearing guilt
as a mask. While I sit and ponder
on the past, your words play
over and over again like a
broken record. Off key. Out
of tune. I am lost.

I've been spending most of my days alone, shrugging off whatever drought has entered my heart. I've fallen and picked myself back up, I've kept my head held high with rain in my eyes. I shut down as soon as everything opened up for me. I swept it all under the couch. I've spent so many days searching for something good to fill my mind. And I think I stumbled upon it in your eyes.

I wanted to take the time to remind you that I love you. Even though I may act like I despise you it's because I confide in you. I'll keep pushing and pushing and pushing these things away in hopes in the end I can pull it back together in a warm embrace. My actions are reflections of my affections. I've spent my time struggling to get up on my feet, I've spent time dealing with the pain, I've spent time with the sun in my eyes. I've experienced it all. You are hope. You are love. You are everything above. You might as well be solid ground I can't help but to fall on. This is a reminder. This is not some ******* lines I wrote for you. This is me saying I need you, my friend. If the weight of the world falls on your chest, I'll be there to help lift the weight off your sunken chest. And when that sun sets for you, I promise it will be worth the wait. There is beauty in a storm, there is a calming in its embrace. Even when things get chaotic, I'll be there right next to you, waiting for the heart of the storm to eat you to death. This a reminder to grow.

You carved out my bones and moved in on my head. Shallow homes are hollow ends. It's nothing but dead ends. The sound of your voice, and your voice on the phone went ringing in my ears. So they say, home is where the heart is, well if that's the saying then where the hell have I been. This house is empty as the promises you made to me, I'll shut you out, you'll pick me apart, and we'll leave it at that.