Hold onto my hand
Even though we know you're slipping
I feel better knowing
I tried saving you
Before you were torn from my hand
And I was at your funeral

I grab onto fire hydrants
Because they feel just like your heart
Completely untouched
Dusty and red

I stare up at the street lights
Because they look just like your eyes
Painfully blinding
Pale and vulnerable

I scream at the cars
Because they sound just like your words
Ridiculously loud
Rusty and metallic

I lick all the glass buildings
Because they taste just like your kiss
Chillingly artificial
Transparent and busy

I linger with the tradesman
Because they smell just like your tension
Deathly anxious
Uptight and stuffy

You're cold and out of touch
I see it on your face
We have nothing in common
Except one chilly place
You're so many shades of blue
And only one shade of red
Like the color of my sight
When I remember all you've said
Tall are the buildings
You say you admire
You don't like warmth
Yet you're made of fire
You said I should visit
We were meant to be close
Maybe one day
When we call off the eastern coast
Are you able to hold the weight
Of the rain in The Bronx
In your sleek convertible
Could you handle all the honks
Do you like the idea of a loud city
Because it might fill up your mind
There's not much in there
Not much to find
Am I your statue of liberty
A green mold that's exquisite
You'll forget all about me
After one or two visits
Your name is now a code
For the other one I know
You're cold and out of touch
Like an empire state snow

You make it simple
You make it so so easy
To deprive myself of love
And hate everything about me

You make it minimal
You make it so so easy
To turn off my tears
And to hold it in fiercely

You make it innocent
You make it so so easy
To fall off my rocker
And lose sight of clarity

You make it quick
You make is so so easy
To hurl up my meals
And to punish my body

You make it humorous
You make it so so easy
To cut off every friend
And isolate reality

You make it effortless
You make it so so easy
To doubt everything I say
And to call myself crazy

When things seem easy
You don't tend to ask for help
But you make it a little too easy
To completely destroy myself

I don't like the way my brain rattles
I don't see any benefit
And i really do despise
That you're the one shaking it
I have life to be lived
Yet im stuck in this exile
Of your on and offs
And staring at your profile
I laugh at our potential
And cry when I remember
You're hotter than July
And colder than December
I thought you were a bee
Turns out you are a wasp
Or maybe you're a red light
And ive forgotten how to stop
That tag on my shirt
Digs into my neck
Crawls up to my brain
And leaves me in a wreck
So you find it funny
How much I think of you
Your comedy needs some work
Maybe try something new
I'm really getting bothered
Just leave me I beg
Stop telling me lies
And get out of my head

The words I speak
Are far too similar to yours
I feel the dirt on my tongue
A bitter taste that I ignore
So to counteract this fear
Of your vocab matching mine
I started brushing harder
To loosen up the grime
I want that Colgate white
That fresh uncaring scent
I need you out of my molars
Scraped clean of your cement
I stand over the sink
For hours at a time
Just tearing at my gums
To sever that line
Now I'm shouting in the mirror
Why can't you leave me be
There's blood in my spit
You're rooted like my teeth
I'm stuck in this house
So I'm swishing my mouth
And spitting you out
With you I'll live without
When I'm no longer stuck in this house
And you in my mouth

You linger in my thoughts
And makes me want to cry
You send me your walls
No hey what's up goodbye
You are a prisoner in my mind
Though you might not know it
Every word you say sends me spiraling
Does everything I say leave you stoic
I find out you're ignoring me
So I find something to help ignore it
You send me on a doomed ride
But I can't help but adore it
I miss your voice
Your questions and jokes
You are my late night high
The drug that I smoke
I'm scared you might hate me
I'm as annoying as I fear
Like maybe I was cool before
But now it's getting clear
You're like the pesky flies in summer
You just keep coming back
Too many times I've said I'm done
Too many times to keep track
What if you know I'm like this
What if you know I'm insane
What if you know I'm pretending
What if you know you're stuck in my brain
You linger in my soul
And you're killing me slowly
You never tell me what I want
Hey, whats up, you love me