Please hold my hand tighter
As you dangle me off this cliff
The bottom is filled with spiders
And all the poems I've wrote
All the poems with your name
All the poems stained with tears

Please let my heart go
Let me float into the sky
Up there I'll find refuge
And all the joys I wish to have
All the joys I've been hoping for
All the joys without you in them

I don't want to feel this way
At least I think I don't
Why would I want a venom so toxic
It infects my neurons for months?
I don't want to feel this way
At least I hope I don't
Why would I want a sun so bright
It burns into my retina?
I don't want to feel this way
At least I pretend I don't
Why would I want a wave so large
It rolls down my face persistently?
I don't want to feel this way
At least I assume I don't
Why would I want a horrible earthquake
That sends shakes into my heart?
I don't want to feel this way
At least I decide I don't
Why would I want a buzzing bug
That follows me perfusely?

God I call apon you now
To try and help me find
A want to stop feeling
And leave this all behind

A goose chase
A bird with beautiful feathers
And I know he's a weak wooden match
And the farther I run after him
The thicker the forest becomes
My feet are getting stuck in the mud
And the shadows keep getting darker
But I can't escape his golden feathers
Drawing me closer
Closer than I want to be
Because the branches are scratching at my face
And the pollen burns my eyes
But the sound of the bird is so beautiful
And I can't draw my ears away
Every tree looks familiar
Yet I am so so lost
Within this horrible jungle
But all i see within the pain
Is a beautiful golden goose
Just slightly out of reach

You're like a race
A car pushing 180
But you're miles away
Driving so far into the sunset
You might fall off the edge of the world.
Every now and then
You'll drive close to my heart
Before rushing off again
Far away into the horizon.
My head spins faster than those charcoal tires
And my heart beats faster than your radio
My eyes leak like gasoline
And my mind roars like motors
Everytime your taillights become specks

Stop revving your engine
And driving round my block
If you'll never find my address

Am I the spider in the corner
Weaving a sticky web
So I might catch a beautiful bug
A bug I can hold onto
Wrap up and keep
So carefully I design this web
A thread of fear
A thread of vulnerability
A thread of confidence
But the only thing the bug will see
Is the facade of my design
Never truly knowing
How trapped he will truly become

I'm going to be the dirt
And maybe even the dust
That the passerbys walk all over
When the sun has set
And the smiles have settled
All will be reminiscent
Except me
The grime on the ground
For I have nothing to find nostalgic
No smile to love
No kiss to crave
And that utter terror
Of being left alone
While the crowds move along
Is what keeps my eyes open
When the sun is close to rising

All you do is sit
sit and cry
sit and mourn
sit and panic
sit and stare
You sit when your legs ache from sitting
Where are you sitting?
In the dome you've encapsulated yourself in
You have nothing better to do than sit
Sit and breathe
Sit and hide
Sit and avoid
Sit and tremble
Why can't you see what the rest of us do
That you're running out of air in there
We reach for you
So you might get up
Because you constantly sit
Sit and rage
Sit and mope
Sit and pretend
Sit and reject
What is the cement made of
Holding up your capsule
Your fears and vulnerability
Proof you built these walls
Proof youre the only who can change this
I pray you stand
Stand and maintain
Stand and relax
Stand and bond
Stand and feel
Because all you do is sit.