I don't like the way my brain rattles
I don't see any benefit
And i really do despise
That you're the one shaking it
I have life to be lived
Yet im stuck in this exile
Of your on and offs
And staring at your profile
I laugh at our potential
And cry when I remember
You're hotter than July
And colder than December
I thought you were a bee
Turns out you are a wasp
Or maybe you're a red light
And ive forgotten how to stop
That tag on my shirt
Digs into my neck
Crawls up to my brain
And leaves me in a wreck
So you find it funny
How much I think of you
Your comedy needs some work
Maybe try something new
I'm really getting bothered
Just leave me I beg
Stop telling me lies
And get out of my head

The words I speak
Are far too similar to yours
I feel the dirt on my tongue
A bitter taste that I ignore
So to counteract this fear
Of your vocab matching mine
I started brushing harder
To loosen up the grime
I want that Colgate white
That fresh uncaring scent
I need you out of my molars
Scraped clean of your cement
I stand over the sink
For hours at a time
Just tearing at my gums
To sever that line
Now I'm shouting in the mirror
Why can't you leave me be
There's blood in my spit
You're rooted like my teeth
I'm stuck in this house
So I'm swishing my mouth
And spitting you out
With you I'll live without
When I'm no longer stuck in this house
And you in my mouth

You linger in my thoughts
And makes me want to cry
You send me your walls
No hey what's up goodbye
You are a prisoner in my mind
Though you might not know it
Every word you say sends me spiraling
Does everything I say leave you stoic
I find out you're ignoring me
So I find something to help ignore it
You send me on a doomed ride
But I can't help but adore it
I miss your voice
Your questions and jokes
You are my late night high
The drug that I smoke
I'm scared you might hate me
I'm as annoying as I fear
Like maybe I was cool before
But now it's getting clear
You're like the pesky flies in summer
You just keep coming back
Too many times I've said I'm done
Too many times to keep track
What if you know I'm like this
What if you know I'm insane
What if you know I'm pretending
What if you know you're stuck in my brain
You linger in my soul
And you're killing me slowly
You never tell me what I want
Hey, whats up, you love me

I tend to follow strings
That lead no where
Sometimes even
They dangle off dark trenches
And I'm such a fool
I follow them to my doom

I lock all my doors
With bolts and keys
You're always pounding on the doors
And I always let you in
If your knuckles are already bruised
Might as well knock some sense into me

I light fires
That I don't know how put out
[  ] Sometimes I find hoses
And I'm filled with hope
Unfortunately
I don't know how those work either

I keep crashing cars
On the sides of mountains
The radio sings like molasses
Not a soul around
And yet I still always manage
To blame the traffic in the city

I forget the time
And the dates on the calender
When the sun sets on my face
All I truly know
Is another day is done
And another day is wasted

Tower over my heart
And spit onto my veins
Hold your grip on my mind
And bite into my brain
The bruises they shine purple
The slashes start to scab
My cheeks are wet like foggy air
Each tear is full of sad
The pain is like a thorny bush
Green yet full of death
I can barley breath
Yet ill still analyze your breath
I'm getting high on your cruel words
Careless and full of greed
The spiders poison still brings it fame
Your attentions what I need
Any hate I feel fades fast
The torture melts to sunshine
A fleeting storm that cannot last
Replaced by warmth I claim as mine
I am slowly burning
In your boiling sea
But the sky is just too cold
And I don't know how to be free

Attraction to attraction
I'm running around the boardwalk
The sun is igniting my hair
And I listen to the seaguls talk.
Some of these games cost a lot
But I brought money to spare
Some of these games win me prizes
But that's not why I'm here.
The smell of food is strong
My senses are alert
There's sand and shells in my shoe
But this place blinds the hurt.
Through my fun and games
Lies a restless cloud
But he's easily ignored
Since this fair is far too loud.
Each feature is enticing
I'm hooked on all these booths
The thunder starts to rumble
But I'm blocking out the truth.
The carousel matches the spinning storm
And the roller coasters zoom like lightning
There still so much to try
The possibilitys are frightening.
I smell the moist air
And I feel a drop or two
But it's ok for now I hope
There's still so much to do.
The crowds they start to disipate
In lines I stand alone
The gale has just arrived
But the people head on home.
Dread fills my core
But my feet they keep moving
My laughter is loud
But fear keeps intruding.
And like a dam breaking
The sky pores down a flood
Now the air is cold
And the sands thick like blood.
Now I'm here listless
With nothing to do
All the attractions have closed
And my disparity brews.
No one to turn to
No shelter or shade
I think i was just waiting
For the rain on my parade.

You know you're in darkness
When the lights become brighter.
How odd is the night
The stars are on fire
Yet the air is ice.
The fan in my room
Drys up my hot tears.
Every electrical wire
Had a charge with a purpose
A safe place to go.
Wires are strangling cords
Given to the children of today.
There was a baby in her belly
Did she know how'd she turn up
A hideous creature.
The future is less of a line
And more like a rubber band.
I tie my hair up
When I want to feel the sun
And when the sun gets too hot.
The sun has a troubled brother
They call him dim moon.
The moon barley sheds light
Do not be discouraged
Everyone knows his name.
You know you're in darkness
When the lights become brighter.