Fear, interrupted by happy, sad, funny, awful, and mostly morose
If only I were just one of those
To capture myself and to know where will I go from here
Not sure how I got here
There’s always been fear
Even when I think it’s to the rear I know it will appear
Can’t you hear the turbulence out there
I sure can
In a fleck of sand it can not stand to be ignored
It will rush in like a storm
To keep it out I wish the norm to be
That’s just not how it is for me
Worry brings it back every time
Stress, pain, glee, terror, and euphoria
In my mind
But never contentment
The state I wish to find
Been so long I can’t rewind to the time when I had it
When something didn’t sap it
But I will go on
The only hat I can pin it on
I will survive, overcome and strive to stay alive
It’s the only way to find my place
Even if it’s in some distant space in time
For the day I’ll know right where I’m at
And have
Peace of mind