Here i am
Watching tv
My favourite show is on
There they are
My favourite characters
-Days passed
But im still stuck there

When did i get in my room?
Im typing this out
I can see my thumbs
But i cant feel them,
Are they mine?

My mind feels as though im in a home that doesnt belong to me
That im opening doors but i cant find the exit
The tranquility,
Safety,
I once felt is long gone

That the slow tides began making a ruckus
They hit,
Throw a fit,
Then calm down
Until my frown
That was beggining to stick
Dissapears

The sounds became quiet
The ocean becomes my serenity once more,
But then the bubbles begin to rise
The fish
The sharks
Even the rocks down below begin to rumble

But now im in my kitchen,
Grabbing a bite to eat,
Whats the day of the week?
Opening the tv with the remote suddenly in my hand,
-there it is
My favourite show

Drown out the noise
The loud, suffocating, noise.

Let me here anything but those words

I speak but no sound
I blink but everythings blurry
I move but im being slowed down by the weight pulling me down in the ocean
Blue,
Saphire,
Cold,
Im all alone
I reach for your hands but my arms arent long enough
My voice isnt loud enough
The words i spew for you to hear me turn into nothing but bubble floating all around

You once saw me
Took a glimpse at the broken glass
All the tears flooded down like the **** dam was finally broken
My nose and cheeks turning a shade of purple ive never seen before
But that wasnt the end
It was merely another step to the never ending bottom of the ocean.

Day in, day out,
The sun shines
The wind cries
The rain creeps
And the birds tweet

Day in,and day out,
Do my hair
Do my makeup
Do my work
And the day goes on

Night in,and night out,
The tears stroll down
The knot tightens
The  voices clown
And the morals i stand on dissipate.

Night in,and night out,
The clouds form
The smoke gather
The heart aches
And the trees shudder.

The whispers arise
Day in,and night out,
As the poor deers run,
Bunnys hop and fish swim,
The end is the crave
So why am i depraved?

Drowning.
Thats the way i like it.
Swallow, and swallow, and swallow.
Drink after drink
The number you get, the better you feel.
Once the giggles come out, anything is possible.
From stiff as a stick to dancing like the leaves in trees when its windy,
From glum as a snail to happy as a dog,
All from the help of the magic potion.

Emerald eyes staring into my soul,
Golden locks flying in to my face,
red lips leaving marks on my
Neck,

Here we sneak,
Just to meet,
But i always take a peak,
At your rosy red cheek,
And as i hear the boards creek,
I turn weak.

I love you.
Forever and always.
You are mine and i am yours.
Your beautiful smile should be reserved for me and me only.
Why should others see you?

You always leave,
Your lipstick stains my sleeve,
And you leave me to greive,
Because i cant believe,
You so easily deceive,
The one who truly loves you.

I am for you.
And you for me.
Why dont you understand?
My pretty deer.
My soft koala bear.
You cant leave me.

It was time, as she tried to fled
I bashed her head
And as she bled
All i saw was the crimson red
I placed her on my bed
I remembered she once said
She wanted to wed

So i must secure this for her.
It must be me who she marries
No-one else is enough.
It will be me.
I unbuttoned her shirt.
And all i kept telling her was
“It wouldnt hurt”

Here i am,
Once again,
Day after day,
The tingly senstation wont end
The warm sizzling feeling at the back of my neck
My eyes darting left to right
And right to left
The suffocation of my heart
Sweat pooling at my forehead
The shaking of my hands
the composure staying,then leaving, like a heartbeat
One that,suddenly, becomes all i can hear.
The ringing of my ear
The need to keep my hands busy
The breath i take becoming part of my imagination.

Here i am,
Once again,
Day after day.

I was a daughter of the sun
He was the son of the moon

Years go by all i see is light
All he sees is the darkness

Whilst the clouds enchant the sky for me
The bright stars up above for him

Whilst i cant even look up at the sun properly,
I can do so easily with the husky moon

There is no him only i reside here
The him is nonexistent
The him is my mind
My deepest darkest thoughts
The one i must hide
I mustnt show what it truly looks like
My truest of thoughts

Just like an eclipse,
You mustn’t look at it.