I think i'm tired i'm not for sure,
Got that restlessnes feeling, wonder what for.
Bothering thought's fill my head,
Behind bars for the holiday's should be with my kid's instead.
I made a mess of thing's, and only I am to blame,
Disapointed my baby's and feel ashamed.
Still I continue doing what's done,
Can't stop myself I enjoy the fun.
Time away and that's what I got,
To work on myself and fix what I got.
I need to clean up and change my way's,
That will be worked on for 210 day's.
I love my children with all my heart,
I could'nt imagine if some day they were to start.
I can't say for sure that any of this will be done,
I can only do my best not to have none.

You are the 1 that hurts me the most,  
and here i will tell you why.
Broken promises, accusations and lies,
dont matter what I do no matter how hard 1 tries.
No communication nothing 2 discuss,  
We are heading no where there really is no us.
I'm exspected from way 2 much, with all your silly things and such.
I feel so distant from you attraction and all, your assumptions are hurtful so I put up a wall.
I don't want 2 think the thoughts I have it's a daily battle, look's like our relationship isn't worth the battle.
No longer do i feel the love i had before, you've pained my heart many times can't do it any more.
I used 2 be strong with my heart, but the way you are with me you tore all apart.
Unique, fun loving, big hearted and so much more, but you want let be those things im wondering what for.
Nothing I do is good enough 4 you so why won't you set me free? We are both unhappy in life why won't you see.
I won't change the person I am, will not can not change i will never do, and if you can't accept that then I feel sorry 4 you.

Today is a step closer to what will be,
What that is at this momment I can not see.
To be stuck in a place I so much hate,
Freedom to few and others to late.
I dont question myself on why I come back,
Its decisions made and the good ones I've lacked.
You'd think i've learned not what to do,
I have only myself to blame,"thats who".
The crying the hurting the pain inside,
It's time to be honest my lifes been a lie.
I want to do right and do whats best,
Put my past behind me and leave it to rest.
Day by day thats getting done,
And closer I'll be to my daughter and son.

Just for today wake with a smile, & your
thanks will be acknowlegded.
Just for today share a dream with a loved
one, & they will be known.
Just for today be kind, & thy heart will
heal others.
Just for today listen with your eyes, &
wisdom will be learned.
Just for today accept the accepting, &
thy will be welcomed.
Just for today follow your soul, & thy
will be rewarded.
Just or today bless thy life, & thy end
shall be unforgettable.

Made in 97 and has'nt gone to far,
She became my best friend, Odd for a car.
Alway's loved when we went out,
Driving up and down of any rout.
She would be there when I needed to go,
Just stop for gas and go with the flow.
Quicker than other's on any ordinary day,
Just wanted to show me she's here to stay.
Black and beautiful and not to big,
She never complained when I lite up a cigg.
I know she never smoked but she was thirsty a lot,
She would guzzle up all the gas that I bought.
She loved my dog's, took ride's with them too,
Till on her one day my dog Brutus spewed.
Fun and freedom that's all I had,
But then some mean man made me sad.
He hurt my buddy in the worst way,
Left her paralized in the month of may.
This man named Yazbek he denies all,
She was hit by a car and it was your's I saw.
Her face was crushed, she did'nt pull through,
Saying goodby to a special friend I once knew.
She gone forever waiting on that list,
While I am still standing here, very pssd.
A friend she was with a big heart,
I'm not so dear, I sold her body part's.
I'll find a new friend, I'm sure we will have fun,
It will never be the same as that one.
You were my first, I'll never forget,
Took you home right after we met.
Everyone liked you especially me,
I got you going with the turn of a key.
You would light up inside and on the road you would glide.
You did your job that's all I know,
Wish you did'nt have to take that tow.
Later day's my black friend,
Damage to your front we could'nt mend.

My name is Hope and im a person of heart,
I hurt for families whos lost their son or daughter at war,  
the world we live in they are no longer part.
I hurt for those who have nothing, not a thing at all.
I cry for the little girl whos lost her olny doll.
To watch other lives crumble right before your eyes,
It hurts me to think of it but its happening worldwide.
Wish I where a SUPER HERO, Like the ones in a comic book,  
Id give back every thing that was taken Id return what life took.
I will try to do more good than bad, and hope that I succeed.
Maybe those who watch will learn and soon follow my lead.
If your reading my peom right now keep this in mind,  
Every little thing matters, and we must teach the younger generation
how not to hate but to love and be kind.

We're like two idiot's trying to make thing's right,
There's not a day that we dont fight.
Not happy with what we got,
Accept each other as is, "It's just a thought".
You say I say, It's both of us every day.
We come from different world's as we both know,
And with both of us so stubborn, I should just go.
The way I feel I can guarentee,
You don't feel the same for me.
This is a love hate relationship, That part I get,
You with me or me with you I just don't see fit.
I feel I have done my part and change's have been done,
But on your part I have'nt seen none.
You're probably thinking this is not right,
Please tell me, text me, asap by the end of the night.
I'm going to do my best and watch the word's I say,
And keep tabs on myself day by day.
I want this to work and I know why,
I would say I did'nt love you but that would be a lie.
Now I'm putting all I've got into us two,
Going to pretend this relationship is brand new.
What you do is up to you.