"baby am *****" he'd say
And I'd tell him am not
"please baby just one round" he'd say
Manipulative he was
Or rather I was a stupid young girl who thought she was loved by someone
The process from the beginning to the end was unpleasant
I thought having *** was meant to be spacial between two people but no
You'd take off my clothes
Push me to the bed
All I could see in your eyes was lust and nothing more
You'd come closer and my heart would start to break
The words failing to come out of my mouth
The word stop
You'd rub against my ****** with your *****
I'd tell my ****** not to get wet
I'd hope it doesn't get wet
But I guess the ****** has a mind of its own
And so it got wet
I'd try to contract my ******
Make my body stiff so that you don't get it
But I guess I was too weak for your manly strength
You'd put it in
And my heart would break again
You'd stroke so hard I'd want to scream no
But I couldn't
I was afraid to tell you to stop
I was afraid of you
I'd let out a fake moan just to satisfy you
I'd scratch
And bite
And moan louder and louder
I'd fake all the things a man wants a woman to do when they have ***
When you came
Its where it ended
You'd wear your clothes
And come up with some ******* excuse for you to leave
And when you left
I'd sit there naked on the bed
Crying
Ashamed of myself
Questioning my power as a woman
Looking at myself like some piece of trash that just says yes even if she doesn't want to
Disgusted of myself
I was
***** and impure
You left me ***** and impure