I’m just completely numb
The **** I’ve been feeling is really really dumb
I can’t grasp on what I REALLY feel it’s like a hand with no thumb
I can’t seem to find a **** to give
Don’t even know why I gotta live
All my friends like to disappear
Whenever they feel like it they’ll just reappear
I feel betrayed
All that ******* love I’ve portrayed
Is finding the end of its days
I can’t find anyone to trust
If I get ****** over again I’ll put a gun to my head and just let it bust
I think I’m just gonna keep my distance
Like a MVP ring for anyone in the Pistons
I can’t tread in deep waters anymore I’ve drowned too much
I’ll just stick to shallow waters with my crutch
Maybe one day I’ll find my lady who will make me happy
Until then my emotional capacity is gonna be really ******
I keep way to much inside
The emotional rollercoaster is always going for a ride

She lead me on
She left me on a thread
I’ve never felt so numb
I feel like a piece of crumb
I know what I want but they don’t
I’m not destined for love
My whole life is just a pun

Satan took control of my soul
He played me like a ******* pro
I went to church and asked for forgiveness
Then god responded and got all up in my business
The dark night turned into a holy light
The evil in me turned to a prequel
The good in me turned to a sequel
I feel like a new man
I got a good plan
I wanted to run
But I stood strong and won
No ******* shall prosper
That’s advice from my father

I grew up in a wrecked generation
Where whoever has the most money defines the separation
It’s a dark place
Where money is the only reason we race
I’m trying to keep my mind at a steady pace
How am I supposed to do that when I can’t look at my own face?