I can't do anything right all you do is yell and make me cry nobody else gets **** on for nothing you punish me for trying yell at me for trying put me down for my opinions make me feel stupid all the time say I'm stupid when I ask for help compare me to my horrid mother always put me down make me really sad and upset so sad I feel that I'm always on the verge of a breakdown because of what you say to me and do to me I can't be happy anymore I don't know how to be I'm too worried you'll be upset with me for doing something that makes me happy and for my fear and sadness, I lost my happiness I had to sacrifice my happiness for you the one thing in the world that I was told that was nonsacrificial was sacrificed all because you made me believe that I can't do anything right you've made me feel depressed...
Everywhere I go I carry hurt Whether I hurt or I give hurt Everywhere I go I either get a ball to the face, I fall, my emotions get played with, or someone has something to say or to Criticize me.
Everywhere I go I give hurt, I don't mean to But I do give it I'm sorry, I don't mean to be toxic
I'm not crying because I fell and got a cut or bruise I'm not crying because I'm sensitive
I'm crying because I'm losing the fight And now I'm in fright Because my demons are winning And I'm here dying Whilst still being A demon to all Of everyone else
A battle lost. Demons won. They broke me down. Left me here like a cracked egg. For the king's horses and kings men. That can't put me back together again.
We're all here, Trying to get somewhere else, We fake a smile, Trying to make it real, Faking our laughs, Trying to be funny, All living for something, So that we don't die for nothing, We're all here Trying to get somewhere else.
Oh how it burns From deep within Knowing it's my fault That I was never good enough
Every time you called me beautiful I denied because I knew you were just saying that You gave me hugs when I felt ugly But mostly to make her jealous
I never caught on Because I was in love with you I still am in love with you More then ever
But I was never good enough Compared to her I know it's my fault though
So you mustn't feel bad For leaving me here broken on the floor Crying while watching you walk out the door For my love for you is much more Then you could ever know
My broken heart still lies within Still waiting for you to come back and help me fix it But there you go out the door
Just because I always look happy It doesn’t mean I am I’m always tired But that’s from deep within Just because I always look happy Doesn’t mean I don’t have family issues I’m one of seven children Because I have 4 parents doesn't mean I talk to them all Just because I always look happy Doesn’t mean I’m gay I stand for GSA and support it But I’m very much so straight Just because I always look happy Doesn’t mean I’m not hurt My past is a blur with a lot of accidents on my part I’m bruised and broken from my mistakes But the past is the past Just because I always look happy Doesn’t mean I am I’m sorry for lying about my emotions, for your benefit But that’s a part of my story Just because I always look happy Please don’t always believe me.