shes been hurting for the longest time
its painfully obvious she wants to commit a certain sin
so she can go to heaven but after what she did she may not get in
she let them win
she doesnt get it
now shes sitting outside heavens gate with scars on her wrist
on her legs and on her hips
screaming "why did i do this, look what i did!"
she let them win
she was in pain
i tried to help her i really did
my words, my pleads they never set in
i tried my best she wouldnt listen
now that shes gone i dont know what to do
i cant move on i cant forget
dont know what to do or how to talk about it
i loved that girl i really miss her
and she loved me but i never got to kiss her
my biggest regret, being 800 miles away from her every time i rest

clock in
clock out
day in
day out
working at a desk all day
hoping youll make it big one day
hoping itll be worth it so you can say

amen

My beginning is as far as I can remember
But not my actual one
My end is as far as I can go
But not my actual one

life changes
for good or for bad it strangles
the life out of you
until you're sick of it
too much from the media too much from the press
the battle between trump and korea
it's giving me a headache and too much stress
just stop it
never knowing if you're gonna hear a bomb siren today or the next
it's too much stress
too much of a mess
like the earbuds you put in your pocket and cant untangle
it's useless to try and fix it, you'll only make it worse
life changes
and a new school shooting everyday
it's a sensitive topic
we pray for their families but never do anything to stop it
just stop it
you're making it worse
it physically hurts
to see you say you'll stop it
but never do anything when you see a kid getting bullied
just stop it
when will you learn
it's not the gun that pulls the trigger
and if it was
and you ban guns
the problem will get bigger
just like drugs people always will find a way
when we live life in a hellhole
and deem our brothers and sisters unconstitutional
just stop it
life changes
we split up our own families
with these stupid political parties
just stop it
George Washingtons farewells speech warned
we didnt follow his advice
so our nation was torn
we didnt do nothing useful
but put our friends behind bars
Abe Lincoln said it
a house divided on it self cannot stand and it'll crumple like its made of cards
man just stop it
life changes
it aint fun for us
think of the kids
think of the future that they have to live in
the air they have to breathe in
the bitter hatred they have to deal with
we aint doing nothing to help our nation
so what are we doing

i handed out cries for help everytime i walked past you
but you never listened or picked up on what i was trying to do
half of me wanted to stay alive
the other half was dying inside
and that half was too strong sometimes
that half would leave scars sometimes
physically and mentally
it played a game with it self
figuring out new ways to make me sad
it just made me want to say goodbye mom
goodbye dad
it might be over soon
but not now
the next time the half hits me like a wave
like a monsoon