I needed a break,
From the break already given
I needed one more day
Everyone has separate lives
It’s busy on the streets
Wait,
It’s too busy
The cars are louder
The lights are brighter
Wow the air is thinner in here!
Maybe something is off with the air filter?
Everyone else seems fine
I’m fine too
The face is called to arms
I know this face
I’m a master at it
Years of practice takes over
A smile appears
Here we go
My brain
My body
My thoughts
Terrorized
I’m being attacked
By my own thoughts
I knew I needed more time
I wasn’t ready
Here we go
YOU!
STOP THE CYCLE!
The cycle can’t stop
Why try?
My eyes flitter from face to face
I’m acutely aware of every noise
Wow that truck is loud
Over stimulation
I hate this
The more you try to stop
The worse it gets
Dear Lord,
I shouldn’t be driving
I can’t concentrate
Help me!
Ha!
Funny
Like you actually thought it could be helped
You already take meds for it
What else can you do?
Just
Get
Home
It will be over soon
…
Over?
Oh great
Always so optimistic
I’m not leaving
I know the cycle
I know it well
He is here to stay
At least for a while
Smile!
You must smile
It’s not pretending anymore
It’s just… this way
Just!
Get!
Home!
Oh thank God
Home I’ll be fine
No more driving
Step out of the car
Don’t listen to the world
Block it out
Block it out?
You think you can just turn everything off?
Gee that would be helpful
Stairs,
One at a time
Step
Step
Step
Step
Almost there
Step
Step
Step
Done!
Keys
I need my keys
The door,it’s locked
I just climbed a mountain
The air is thin
Times running out
Hurry
….
Okay
Drop the face
Tell him
He helps
“Hi honey”
“Hi”
“What’s wrong?”
“Nothing”
Really?
The small voice?
Speak up!
He knows you too well
I’m sitting
No, im laying down
I’m curled up
It's still early morning
I feel like its been all day
Arms…
Arms?
Oh that's right
He’s here
With me
Here we go…
Hahaha!
Strap in!!
Every muscle…
Every muscle!!
Tight
Tighter!
The air is even thinner
I can’t breathe
He knows it
He's forcing me out of my ball of limbs
I can't look up
I hate this
I hate that he sees this
Im helpless
Minutes or hours
Its over
I survived
Again
Relax every muscle
One by one
The last muscle is my brain
Once I let this go I will fall
I used so much energy
I can’t keep my eyes open
I’m safe in his arms
It's over.
The mountain is gone