I remember first seeing her standing there talking to her friend. I was stunned frozen in place as if time its self stopped. However meeting her lead to a path of pain I didn’t want to cause her. I remember all her tears I saw running down her face plain as day as I broke her heart. Certain songs hair styles flowers scents all remind me of her. I’d take it all back just to see her one more time. However then the loneliness hits and I’m left sitting here alone with the first mistake I made

I’m sitting there in the downpour with just my thoughts and heart however I never thought that losing her would lead to the peace of a memory in the rain and the Malstrom of emotions

As I grew older I learned a lot of hard and difficult lessons most I caused.
However that doesn’t mean I haven’t grown to feel comfort in the emptiness of loneliness and nothingness. But still keep on smiling because we as people are ever changing

She’s got her halo tangled in my horns
Like a rose petel falling down in between the dirt and thorns

All these memories old and new from a time of innocence from a time of strife all come flooding back into my head as they pose as everyday events seeing them through my day as I’m living them again new problems caused by my actions create uncertainty but all that smoke in my head I still try to keep my head up

Together we will create a home with no loud anger no explosive rage no slamming doors or breaking glass. No punched holes in walls until the foundation cracks and breaks. Our home will be gentle and warm comforting and safe. There will be no fear pain hurt or sadness. We both come from two different pasts but we can break the cycle of the past and change for the cycle of the future