Do you ever just sit around
and think about how much
you wish you were gone?
Not wishing for death
and knowing
that you would never
harm yourself
to that extent.
But wouldn't it all be so much easier?
You can't feel like a failure
if you've failed the final test.
I spend an over whelming amount of time contemplating my own death, wishing that it was all over. But then I think of the future and I know that I have no idea what it holds. What if I end it all right before I was really going to get to live?? I could never take that risk. I want to live to badly.