Since I met you, all I ever wanted to do was take pictures of you... and if there was a story to be told it would be one of how a girl loved a boy more than he loved her.
A girl whom believed that sacrifices are just adjustments people should be willing to make for their partner but more so because they know it will strengthen themselves.
But she would soon find that, that isn't true and people should never shrink themselves for the comfort of others.
The story will end abruptly midst their sixth year, and she will start to think that maybe he did love her, but a part of him didn't believe it would last forever.
And with that he barely tried.

I can't sleep.

I close my eyes but I still see the **** I don't want to see

Faces I wish I didn't know of, faces I wish I didn't meet.

Places I wish I'd never gone

Things I never did.

And as a phone call is answered an abrupt exit

Makes me feel like nothing.

But I feel everything.

How you so childish...
Yet, you so wise?


What are you, a Gemini?

Im a Gemini
Whoa I scared you there didn't I?
Did you see horns when my teeth came together?
Did you catch your rage in time to remember that I'm not the ex that hurt you? Or the friend who trash talked you to others?
Did your heart stop a few seconds at the thought of what that means to you?
So that means I'm inconsistent,
And I might even talk about a million other things before I get down to my point, but trust me when I say it all makes sense
It all ties down into one
And yeah I'm a practical joker but what's life without someone to laugh with, someone to laugh at?
And when you need someone to talk to, I'm that.
I can't say that I'll remember everything you said, but I promise that I won't pretend you never said it.

Isn't it funny?
How we all think we're invincible?
But when
Push comes to shove,
How sadly we have
Fallen...

So this is it, huh?
Every morning I repeat the same old tired routine. But there's supposed to be more for me, I know there is.
Your 20's isn't your regular old 20's anymore. I remember being a kid when my sisters were in their early 20's I thought they were so big and lived exciting lives. They looked like nothing could slow them down, not the world, not themselves NO ONE.

Yet here I am, 22... trying to fly.
I want to ask them how'd they make life look so wonderful.

Because right now I could fill a whole room with my thoughts if anyone ever knew.