why cant people see the change in me like i can
why don't they understand my past isn't what defines me
that my smile is now real my heart is now healed
that i'm done being the depressed little girl i was for 5 years
i am changed i am a better girl then i was

just give me a chance i will prove it i mean it when
i say im changed i can look at myself in the mirror and say i
am gorgeous, beautiful and wonderful
i am smart creative and i have a wonderful voice and
caring heart my smile shines bright and
give others hope when they thought they had none.
This is how i know i am changed.

I thought you were supposed to love me threw good times and bad I was your baby girl and you were my dad you held me when I first came into this world
and now your gone you wont talk to me
and now you say you don;t love me my heart is crumbling
i'm watching as my very own blood is spilling but here you are not caring
I thought you'd love me forever and always be there but now its all lies you left me cold hard and broken slowly slipping away from the world and you just watch with your blank expression not a care in the world as you are slowly being rid of me
and now I knew mom was right all those years ago
you'd hurt me and in the end it would
be to much for me to bare and I will die from a broken heart
for anther parent wasn't there for me
in the end.

my sight has become blinded by rage
they sit and mock me
but it causes me no pain
for pain and i have all became one
my smile is a faltering flower about to die
but that's nothing compared to my sorrow

the tears that once brimmed my eyes has left
the feelings of sadness have all but passed
for now all i feel is nothing

my heart is broken so there is nothing left to feel this
lonely cold breeze that's left of my companions
of the lively heart that once rested with in me

my beautiful singing that was once like a siren is
now like a crow you never hear it
unless tragedy is to come ]

my soul is shy quiet and dark for all it's
light was stolen by a black hand
of night taking with it all light

the way i view life is not the same
i see it all in a black and white space
for there is one there but the demons who bring you fear

my mind is clouded for what if i'm wrong
what wrong what if those demons are really hear to help me and guide me
rather then blind me from my path ive jurneyed

I sit in class waiting my very soul pacing
my limbs aching with the need to run and escape
from all the confinement that home and school bring

At home i long to run the feel of the wind blowing threw my hair
no more expectations to fallow no more people to bring u down just
me and my freedom rains.

just because i'm a girl dose that mean i love pink?
well i don't!
just because i'm a girl dose that mean i cant crack my bones?
well i do!
just because i'm a girl does that mean i have to shop at areapostal
well sorry i love hot topic!

if i have o give up who i am then i guess i'm not a girl
just a guy descized as one