You are everywhere but beside me
I perceive you in my head
You stalk my dreams
embedded in my soul
Refuse to release
Your grasp binds my spirt
Have persuasion over my mind
Yet you are nowhere
Impossible to find

Seasons change.
Rain falls, drowning her pain,
Leaves drift down, carrying the embers of her torched soul.
Summer brings light, yet it fails to ignite
The darkness buried deep within

Winter cold and harrowing
Reflected in her eyes, where light  once glimmered
Like flowers in bloom.
Now, only her withering spirit remains.

The seasons have changed,
Yet the feelings remain the same

Your fingers used to linger,
Our once-fired souls now reduced to timber,
Twisted in a web of lies—
A thousand centuries of whys
Could have redesigned all the wrongs,
But the destruction’s been too far gone.
Forced to live this life apart,
No solution yielded but to depart.
But forgiving you was my greatest art.

She was free
Not in the sense of wealth nor power
But of the mind
She was free
Didn’t have desire to be cast down by chains
No one speaking her name in vain
She was free
Of the world; of the worry
She was free
And that was a beautiful thing for her to finally
Be.

Outside feels cold
Even when the scorching sun beams down on my face.
A imposter in my skin
Nowhere to hide
Nowhere safe
However the indoors when I’m alone
Is a blizzard; a tundra of emotions
Of grief
Not one second
One moment of relief
Always second guessing my first choice
One voice slightly quieter then the next incoming voice
So I rest in the middle of nowhere
Neither here nor there
Not complacent not disturbed
Until the memories are blurred

I’m drowning in the ocean but it feels good. The water takes over my body the euphoria is strong and the current indestructible. I let myself fade into fluid waters. I want someone to come but I know no one will be my savior. So I enjoy the solitude while I fade into the abyss. I’m helpless. Yet feel stronger than I ever have. They sit on the sidelines with a life raft, they hear my cries for help but they go unnoticed. Nevertheless the water validates my feeling. I’m alone now but never felt so alive. I fade deeper and deeper into the unknown until I’m unrecognizable. The pain withers and I’m finally free. While the water captures my lungs we merge; it takes my pain and in return it takes me.

I’m on a road untraveled. Unaccompanied. Into the wild unto the unknown. The hollow ground beneath my feet. The opportunities are endless. The air. Euphoric.
Just me and my Mother. Who holds the earth in one hand and caresses mine in the other. The nature revives me restoring my embodiment.
I have mourned, yet a new spirt has been reborn. The vibrant flowers and their spirited hue heal my wounds. I am one with this planet and in return it is in unison with me.
I am free amongst the brimming trees. Liberated with the charismatic bees. The supple fruit that is planted, nourishes both my body and my soul.
With society’s chains cast off and worldly expectations behind me, all that remains is the pursuit of adventure and the fortune held within this celestial being

Do you see my light? Does it guide you through the dead of night? Like a light house searching for a loved one will it lead you back. Can you see it in the dark, can you see it amongst the lofty trees through the profuse fog or are you lost forever unable to connect. Are you trapped in the midnight with the wild things and the unknown. I cannot feel you anymore you are not on my radar. Do you see the brightness will it bring you home to me? You have been lost for so long can you even be found, can you even be saved. I seek for you everywhere but you are nowhere. Vanished out of thin air it’s like you didn’t want to be discovered you didn’t want to be established. Maybe you found comfort in the missing. Learned to find solace in the shadows. Maybe you are grounded in the darkness

I put out missing posters, but they went unseen.
I saw you the other day; you had to go in a rush.
I wanted you to stay, but I didn’t cause a scene.

I wish I could have stopped you, put an obstacle in your way.
Yet when I looked you in the eyes, there were no more words to say.
So you left, went down a road I will never know.

I put out missing posters,
but you wanted to go.

The world at their feet
Numerous fruitful apples on the tree
Had infinite choices felt free
Then were dried another by another
Killed by the blistering sun
If only they could see
Would have been satisfied if they only picked
One

An angel falls from the sky
Fell from grace
She still has her wings yet there is no trace
A majestic, beautiful creation now bound by earth
She has wisdom despite trying to search
How to get back to the clouds
She screams for her savior yet it makes no sounds
A glorious Angel with no wings
Useless to those that worship worldly things

I understand the depth of ocean now because I’ve cried so much
I could fill it
I understand time now how it moves because I just wanted a little bit more
With you.
I understand the homeless now because I too begged
For your love
I understand the flowers left unpicked left to just blossom on their own because I too
Tried to flourish in the sun without you
I understand it all now
Like I understand the sky is
Blue