Outside feels cold
Even when the scorching sun beams down on my face.
A imposter in my skin
Nowhere to hide
Nowhere safe
However the indoors when I’m alone
Is a blizzard; a tundra of emotions
Of grief
Not one second
One moment of relief
Always second guessing my first choice
One voice slightly quieter then the next incoming voice
So I rest in the middle of nowhere
Neither here nor there
Not complacent not disturbed
Until the memories are blurred

She was free
Not in the sense of wealth nor power
But of the mind
She was free
Didn’t have desire to be cast down by chains
No one speaking her name in vain
She was free
Of the world; of the worry
She was free
And that was a beautiful thing for her to finally
Be.

The world at their feet
Numerous fruitful apples on the tree
Had infinite choices felt free
Then were dried another by another
Killed by the blistering sun
If only they could see
Would have been satisfied if they only picked
One

Seasons change.
Rain falls, drowning her pain,
Leaves drift down, carrying the embers of her torched soul.
Summer brings light, yet it fails to ignite
The darkness buried deep within

Winter cold and harrowing
Reflected in her eyes, where light  once glimmered
Like flowers in bloom.
Now, only her withering spirit remains.

The seasons have changed,
Yet the feelings remain the same

An angel falls from the sky
Fell from grace
She still has her wings yet there is no trace
A majestic, beautiful creation now bound by earth
She has wisdom despite trying to search
How to get back to the clouds
She screams for her savior yet it makes no sounds
A glorious Angel with no wings
Useless to those that worship worldly things

I put out missing posters, but they went unseen.
I saw you the other day; you had to go in a rush.
I wanted you to stay, but I didn’t cause a scene.

I wish I could have stopped you, put an obstacle in your way.
Yet when I looked you in the eyes, there were no more words to say.
So you left, went down a road I will never know.

I put out missing posters,
but you wanted to go.

You are everywhere but beside me
I perceive you in my head
You stalk my dreams
embedded in my soul
Refuse to release
Your grasp binds my spirt
Have persuasion over my mind
Yet you are nowhere
Impossible to find