I’m lost
No idea where i'm going
Or where I will end up
I don't know how I will get where I am going
Or even if I want to go there
Maybe I might want to go somewhere else after
Maybe I might want to stay
But I do know one thing for sure
I do not care where
Or how
Or when
Or why
As long as you are there by my side
Because you are my compass
And with you i'm never lost

They say I have a problem
Yet it isn’t really there’s
So I really don’t understand
Why they really ******* care

They say I have a problem
One that I can only solve
So I hear the words they have to say
Then let it all dissolve

They say I have a problem
That I’m really really high
So it might be best for me
If I didn’t even drive

They say I have a problem
That I just hit another car
They look really injured
And I should probably drive a far

They say I have a problem
I just might go to jail
So I’ll take another sniff and sip
And say what the hell

If I could dream catch her tonight
And Wake up with her eyes
Looking right at me
Then I’d be happy

So until then
I’ll keep my eyes close
Chasing a dream in the dark
Until something lights up my heart…

I wake up terrified when I open my eyes
Thinking am I really still working the same 9 to 5
Thinking is this really going to be the rest of my life
I fear I will be to scared to ask myself why
Or who or what or how or when
To find out who i'm meant to be within
Like why am i here working a job I never liked
What am I willing to do to live the life I deserve
How will i get it if i don't dream big
when will I wake up happy to start another day


See these are the question that keep me up throughout the night
No wonder why I can't sleep right
I’ve settle at this home I built
Unwilling to walk out that door
To finally see that i'm meant for more
This house could be on fire
And I still think I would die here
Because i'm too afraid to walk out that door

See if I only knew
What really lied behind
And the true happiness
That I would truly find
The joy that would fill my lungs when I took that first breath and step
How i’d finally be able to forget the rest of my problems
Because I would finally be able to say
I'd solved them
Or how I couldn’t wait to start my day
Then be a little sad that it went away
Yet I would remember it is OK
Because i’d know another one is coming my way

So I stare at the that door
Asking myself
what makes me special
More than anybody else
To live a life that felt more than right but perfect
Then the answer was way to clear
As I heard it screaming in my head then out my ear
It told me the one thing that I feared
Nothing!!!
Nothing make me special if i just stand here
So I reached for that handle to open that door
But it didn’t want to swing past the wooden floor
So I banged and I shout
For it to let me out
Then kicked the door open without a doubt
That this is what I want
That there is more than just this home to see
That I could finally be the me I want to be

So down went that door
No longer a prisoner
Of my own creation
Free to take any path I choose
Because they are all paths I've never taken
So one step at a time is what i’ll take
Because a life lived my way is never a mistake

I don’t know why I Write
I’ve never used to be good at it
It just came to me one night
As if there was something special
I had to bring to light
See it used to be
The only thing
I hated most of all
But now it seems like it’s the only thing
That picks me up when I fall

I don’t know why I write
As if I have something meaningful
To me it just feels right
Like if I believe that I might change somebody else life
Or maybe just use this
To find my future wife
Maybe my words are like doves
Ready to lift the weight off you
Way up high above

I don’t know why write
Except for this one and only reason
It’s the only way I fight
These bad words within my head
That keep screaming and shouting late at night
Wishing that I was dead
Because every word that I write
Is better written in black ink than in red
See I write for tomorrow
Instead of drowning in today sorrows
I write to survive
Because I like being
Alive

Hey Father where did you go
Don't you know
I've been traveling all alone
Kicking rocks on this lonely road
Tried calling mom
But even she doesn't know

So the kids keep making fun of me
Because they think it's kind of dumb of me
To lose a dad
Which kinda made me mad
Because I wish I had what they had
But what can i say
It's not like you cared anyways

Just wanted to let you know
I’m glad you had to go
Cause i’m a better man than you'll ever be
As you look in the mirror even you can see
I'm nothing close to your reflection
Wait hold on correction
We would need to first have a connection
Maybe throw a ball or two
For me to say I see a dad in you

Did I even matter
Or is that why you scatter
So eager to climb that ladder
Of success
Yup that's right forget the rest
Of us
To bad that ladder was only two feet tall
And you still managed to fall
But you're right the view up here
Makes it way to clear
And eliminates all my fears
I didn't need you now or ever
Because it was so much better
With you gone
Who would have guessed i'd come out number one

Love is just a circle
It goes around and around and around
With no end
It’s just there
And when it’s not
It eventually comes back
But never gone
It didn’t start anywhere
And shows no signs of ending

Love is just a circle
with infinite possibilities
It’s not hiding around any corners
And just when you think that circle
Is as big as it can be
It gets bigger
So you can be loved
And give more love then there was before

Love is just a circle
So I will just wait around
For you to come
So I can love you
And you can love Me
For wherever in this circle you may be

No one ever asked him why
Why his scars are so deep in his skin but he would never hurt a fly
Why he gives so much love even when his heart aches
Why he smiles through the bad days knowing that tomorrow is another day
Why he works so hard to go far but always ends up one step backward
Why he is good to others that do not care to be good back to him

So why not?
Is it because they are afraid they left one of those scars
Or that his heart aches for the love they don't give back
Maybe he smiles because no ever cared when he was sad
Or the step he takes back is because there isn't anything in front of him
And that he is good to all because he knows how it feels to not have a friend

I stand here waiting
For my last grain of sand
So I can see my lover
My greatest friend
Because the lord took her away
Before my chance
To make her my forever
Until the end

So I must be good
To see her again
And make every grain count
Just for her
To show her that I will always
Put our love first
Even though losing her
Felt the worst

I miss the sparkling star
I saw in her eyes
The same one I see
In the late night sky
When we used to drink
Those bottles of wine
And when just one look at her
Sent chills down my spine

It should have been me
You should have been mine
Now I’ll have to wait
For my sand of time
To drop it last grain
And take me back home
To the on that I love
The love of my life

The little things
Is everything
They’re the reason why
I feel so alive
When the days go by
It's the look in your eyes
It’s your laughter in the night
It’s the way those jeans fit ohh so tight
The little things just feel right

It's the late night call
It's when you pick me up when I fall
Or when you make the little me feel oh so tall
Even with all my flaws
The little thing's are what I love most of all
They make my hell feel like heaven
They make me feel like a ten but
I'm really a seven

So the little things are what I will hold
Like your hand so tight
Those kisses in the night
And those reason I decided to fight
To keep you by my side
Because it is always best when you are along for the ride
So i'll love the little things
Because you are my everything

Just because your life is falling apart
It doesn’t mean it can't be put back together
See sometimes those pieces just fall into place
Landing in the most unexpected ways
And you end up right where you’re supposed to be
Sometimes the worst moments in life
Can be so unclear to see the reason why
So you just have to close your eyes and trust
That leap of faith in whatever you believe
In your gut that it gets better
See I fell a thousand times
And I’m still standing
I’ve been broken down to a hundred pieces
And put together stronger
I have wanted to give up at least ten times in my life
But then realized why
When I have so much time to make a comeback
And not once have I regretted where I landed
Because once my life was done falling apart
I landed on my feet every time

They are just words
Letters just flowing out my mouth
I didn't mean them that way
But that's just how they came out
Not knowing to tell the truth or lie
Because words ****
And people die
Of envy and grief
Knowing that their word
May never mean a thing
So I sigh of relief
Knowing that my word is never broken
It's as strong as steel
And what I say is always real
they are just words they say
But my word isn't cheap
And never given away for free
because my word is always worth something