Francinah Tintswi mathebula

Francinah Tintswi mathebula Oct 2020

Sorry for you have become my medicine, the doctor prescribed you to me “take two twice a week” You must be working because I don’t feel the same way I was feeling 2weeks ago.
Yes I hate the side effects, the the silly laugh and the stupid jokes.
You don’t make me numb like the other pills, you are like an energy boost, with you ...I think right.
I hope when you are out of my system I do not come crashing down.
I want to recommend you to other patients like me for I fear that they might not appreciate you like I do.

Francinah Tintswi mathebula Sep 2020

Time=heal

For time doesn’t heal it only makes memories

Francinah Tintswi mathebula Sep 2020

I was never taught what you did was wrong

I was never taught that what u did was wrong
because nobody was around to teach me. I was never taught that u were not supposed to touch me like that, I was young and u were old and I never thought that older people can be wrong, I was never taught that u were not suppose to do what u did, you told me to keep quiet and that's what I did, it happened a couple of times but whose counting, it happened again but this time it wasn't you, but same word "keep quiet" they were right because I was never taught that what they did was wrong. the same touch but different person I thought they were playing with me like u did. I am still not taught what u did was wrong because nobody knows what u did.

Francinah Tintswi mathebula Sep 2020

I am my mother’s child not my mother

Let this not be a generational curse but if so, let the chains break on me
Let not history repeat itself, for I will not do what she did
Let people not see her reflection on me
I am my mother’s child not my mother.
Let her curses not fall unto me
Let her sorrows be washed away by the sea that are in my eyes
Take away the knife that is in my heart
I am my mother’s child not my mother

When you fell my heart and tears fell too.
I am my mother’s child not my mother and you are still my mother

Francinah Tintswi mathebula Sep 2020

To the guy I meet at the taxi

Taxi stranger please
Forgive my eyes for wondering around your temple, for such beauty has rendered me speechless, for such beauty should be a crime 😊. You could be the reason why I use taxis forever... in the faith of meeting you once more🤗
let’s make a fairytale, you will be beauty and I will be beast.one can only wonder if such beauty reflects the inner beauty🤔?
I hope you are waiting like Rapunzel to let down your heart and I will be the princess to promise to catch it and take care of it.
I don’t believe in love at first sight But you got me writing this words at first sight 😊

Francinah Tintswi mathebula Aug 2020

I need someone to talk to

I need someone to talk to, I mean I do the talking and u will listen, I know u have ur own problems... and I shouldn't be making my problems ur problems but please listen to me before I start thinking that this pills are my only friends... I am not saying that my problems are better/worse than urs, I am just saying that i need someone to talk to. I am sorry that I am shouting at u but this pain is loud so I have to be louder... I need someone to talk to, please don't tell me to go the therapist or get professional help because they will just ask me "How does that make u feel ?" For a whole hour because to them I am just a pay cheque. I need someone to talk to, it's okay u can answer where needed, but some questions are rhetorical,they don't need an answer to them... I need someone to talk to.

Sometimes you just someone who would listen to you