I am going to miss you
             And
it's going to hurt me
          Like hell

i am strong but
i am FALLING down
little by little
and
why can't they help me
if their daughter,
if their sister,
if their friend
is FEELING down

"Rest in peace"
      my love
in my heart....

it seems like you do care
               but
the reality in it is very rare

I used to dream
about you and me
without knowing
those were
the worst nightmare
of my life.....

sometimes
i  feel lonely
and
i just want
someone
to say that
i am not alone
some other times
when everyone's
around me
i feel like
i wanna be alone

if i could
i would come to you

if i could
i would talk to you

if i could
i would miss you

if i could
i would hate you

if i could
i would do all
these things
but
i couldn't do
a single thing

i couldn't come to you
i couldn't talk to you
i couldn't miss you
i couldn't hate you

all i could do is
to love you
a little too much
being far away
from you
knowing that
you don't
love me
like i do.....

I hate you
therefore
I hate everything

You know that
how much
I will miss you
and how much
it's going to hurt me
yet......
you choose to be
away from me
for the sake of my self
yet......
I can't seem to sleep
wondering about
ONLY YOU
(the love of my life)

i almost died
when i start
to miss you

"I hate you"
is as simple as
"I love you"

I am tired of loving you