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Mar 20 · 55
alone
Foogle Mar 20
to be alone is when you

start to see the clinical nature of the fluorescent lights on the metro.

it is to realise that once funny phrases you would mock are now something you need to vividly look out for on your daily endeavours.

it is to realise what rain used to look like in the suburbs. How it fell down in park long spent; how it dappled school shirts in droplets of art. It was art; the way harsh storms would contract the deepest screams out of those who hated the wetness - and the most childlike smiles in those who wanted to lose their perfect human form and melt alway in the element of chaos.

In the big city; our rain is muggy. it is almost as much ached and empty as it is humid. The sleet is now an inconvenience; we kick its rivers like bugs we flick from our fingers. It is no longer a playground, only a bitter memory that casts its long shadows on murky puddles of water - it’s only destiny to be stepped in, and stepped in again.

to be alone is to

breathe in the grey sky and appreciate the nostalgic smell of pollution. it is to realise the contrast between the warmth and the cold. It is to watch as summer days become winter days. As light becomes night.

to be alone is to be unsharing of your umbrella.

safe from all the wet; you’ll be. but you are dry. you will have no lingering scent of freedom; no glimpse of immaturity;

no.

you are dry.
Mar 19 · 141
12 Sides
Foogle Mar 19
mornings spent in muted hues; we are
yearning for an elusive past day

do the
orange of your new sunrises run as pretty as the
dear sunsets you saw by accident?
entwined in a single moment - the long
calls that bleed into ‘am’ time,
all of it; it all was seamless - we were
hearts beating as one.
every moment we had was a
deserted emotion -
ringing through. And sometimes I am
out feeling alone - but perhaps in the
night - we are together.
an acrostic
Mar 14 · 38
Wiser in other ways
Foogle Mar 14
the thought of other dimensions makes me
covered in blue for a second
paints me in slow motion
i can run; but they will run faster
they will know what i never did
we will both clash in the ways we are wiser
the one who stayed and the one who left
thinking of different paths untaken
Mar 12 · 47
Glass Box
Foogle Mar 12
it is to look into a glass box at people
When the glass box does not exist
It is hollow like the shell of
A crab who has long left,
Like the love of a
Love that has been since long loved
It is to wonder what bridges the vast canyon
From you alone to them laughing;
It is to ask and to become the buzzing question of
what is so wrong that we cannot do this?
(you)

It is to eye into a glass and
realise you do not know what should be there
It is like a wonder that has no
where to be and nowhere to go
like the awe of a new morning
that quickly vanishes with harsh night
It is to ask what must be causing headache
it is to ask what must be causing heartache
It is to question why to try in a land where
the only person you know is
(you)
Do you ever feel like you do not know what you are doing?
Mar 8 · 361
Pelican
Foogle Mar 8
Pristine waters along the new morning
Eating away at the shore’s lips
Licking the grains of sand that stray
Into the dark ocean
Crystals of colour floating in the sea
Aligning upon foamy waves
Never unmoving, forever free
Have you ever seen a pelican?
Mar 5 · 94
Abyss
Foogle Mar 5
dive into a broken mirror
a bright shattered abyss
deep blue and overwhelming
harsh cold and spiking ice

see a new body
erupted and splintered on the other side
strewn staggered lines free of all anger and demons
pure crying colour
crayoned against pure light
Mar 5 · 309
permanent defects
Foogle Mar 5
To be the heart buried in forty minutes;

I commit the stars above as permanent defects,

in my eyes that shimmer in the amber afterglow.

All to wish for is;

someone to match my fingertips as silently as

the waves run to the beach and

the ocean caresses the sands.
Feb 20 · 69
a thousand silences
Foogle Feb 20
greys wrapped in toils, wrapped in foils, clumsily toppled into a rubble,
to fumble,
into conversation;
clues kissed by ears
hints missed by fears,

crowded hallways,
crowded rooms,
arms folded into halves
body busy, body unlistening,
crouched and close,
taking too much room for what thoughts and will scream;
because in a moment you feel;
nobody, nothing, nobody, and nothing.

senses to swallow
secluded in a second of noise, suffocation, static;
feet glued to the floor,
everything is at every decibel and
to be heard is only a thousand silences
Feb 12 · 154
Without words
Foogle Feb 12
beauty is
afterglow on a face you
        want to bridge the         gap        to
a rickety bridge that holds on by old poles
strings that tether to the
connected ground

beauty rises;
       in wings flying
            beauty is like the sun spreading
it reaches like
              writhing vines up to the
    newly sprinkled sky

beauty flies;
          blown by the high winds and
    it’s in the leaves that have fallen;
beauty is in giving life, love
      and beauty breeds in the
              silence of the resting

the silence of the lived

beauty sleeps
in the amber painting the clouds, the silver linings;
        new nights to live and to be
                                beauty is to know

to understand without words
for my bà nội
Feb 8 · 211
listen
Foogle Feb 8
you never listen to the words i don’t say, but that’s what i always need you to do
Feb 5 · 70
understood
Foogle Feb 5
only the trees know

                                         where our shoes have slid

and only the wind whispers

                                                       where we’re to go

only the ground beneath

                                                      kn­ows the silence i

finally felt like i

                                  understood
Feb 4 · 51
11:09 pm
Foogle Feb 4
and leaving strikes a cord within me that strives to never have been hit,

a chime along the wind similar to a smile and a cry - if you are strained,

- it is heard by the pained,

and if you sift through knowledge, deep down you’ll find,

that anything and everything i say is just a curated lie,

a half fled answer to our incomplete reality,

and the love that i say i have,

but i am empty,

except for the music that is kept within me.


and i’ll say to myself that people will remember;

in december when the nights are long and hot,

and when the air seems to have memory

but they will not, and i will be alone once again,

with the melody that makes up my heart.
written october 7th, 2024
Feb 3 · 212
one go
Foogle Feb 3
i find its as if its all the little things i miss

these new people turn down my gummies with polite 'no thank you's but

i know you would've caught them when they were thrown

and eaten them in one go
Jan 28 · 183
recycled
Foogle Jan 28
how many more
                
          drying days

                              until your name is just

       recycled little letters

                           sprinkled in my
  
        lonely language?
Jan 27 · 361
Everything Blue
Foogle Jan 27
beats are pulsing through lit eyes
that see amber
coated in a hand
that looks like honey
underneath the
yellow streetlights
a small head sticks out a
moving car window
on a still darkened evening
the only sound the
soft wind
and
the endless haunting unknown
"Everything Blue" from "Fauxllennium" gave me this one.
Jan 24 · 149
Ombré
Foogle Jan 24
to capture beauty
is to unravel a soul
under stars
baked into
a sky of blue ombré
Jan 23 · 65
Freedom
Foogle Jan 23
every conversation silence and a side glance
a pandemonium of film
blinking rain away
that's what freedom is;
fleeting along the pretty grass
cold breath and sunshine

that's what freedom is

its ((music so loud)) cause it
((drowns out all those voices))

that's what freedom is
its a lie you pursue, its a promise lost to the flow
freedom'll fizzle out without a glow
it'll leave as a crow

cawing out across the abyss
to its ******
Jan 21 · 72
P
Foogle Jan 21
P
Panorama running pandemonium

placid petals peeling from peonies

pretty people playing but pacing

prone to pain, passing

like pages and palm leaves

planned to ***** and pale
Jan 21 · 66
layers
Foogle Jan 21
whats a hand on a hand mean?
(it’s the
layers on the hug i gave you)
cascading seconds into laughs
subtle sunlight sneaking into sight
(layers on the hugs i gave you)
whats a hand on the ‘send’ trigger mean?
layers on the thoughts i shut up
cascading days into healing hearts
subtle sugar seeking the sign
(of those layers on the hugs i gave you)
Jan 18 · 215
black n white
Foogle Jan 18
emotions ring true over a battlefield

reckless and overcoming, flooding whilst barricaded

rushing endlessly, they light up our

black and white world
take a deep breath today, for yourself, k?
Jan 12 · 66
Fire they're forged in
Foogle Jan 12
its backspace backspace backspace
thoughts you cant get rid of
a person in the mirror you have to live with and yet cant love
things left undone and unfinished, unstarted and unlooked
tears uncried and yet fear seeping like paint in wounds
memories justifying what you cant dare to face
nights left wondering if emotions are returned with the same fire they are forged in
a ravaging storm that you wake up to, mellowing in sewers, mellowing, mellowed;
seeing everything, taking notes and paranoid
missing yourself and people you swore to never remember
but yet hearts crawl back like vines intertwining under sunlight
bound to the force of life like nasty parasites
eating the scraps of memory swore forgotten and unturned
Jan 7 · 66
loser on the sidewalk
Foogle Jan 7
unwavering affection
stands a quiet loser on the sidewalk
peeling every line and every eye
just to help the mundane person live their daily life
it pedestals and admires
to a stranger who won’t know
paints a photo never taken


unwavering affection
has to fiddle and can’t sit still
a boiling *** of water never stopped to simmer
bubbling over but
never erupting
Jan 6 · 175
Magpie Feathers
Foogle Jan 6
we collected magpie feathers and pretended we could fly

but mortals like us can really only die


a camaraderie built in the rain is one that will stain

the smallest starts and the deepest hearts
Jan 6 · 49
Tomorrow
Foogle Jan 6
tomorrow exists forever, it wraps you in trust and repetition,

you plan for it to happen, it plays to your intuition,

but remember, things can lie just to get by,

on one of your tomorrows, all your cries will have been cried,

one of your tomorrows will be a dream never dreamt,

one of your tomorrows, tomorrows promise will be lent,

to another kid who wishes on tomorrow.
"there's always tomorrow"
Jan 3 · 96
that's, me!
Foogle Jan 3
in mirrors i tend to stare, and I see a pair
of blank lies and blank eyes
my head tilts cause that person, sometimes i forget;
is me!
but i never say it proud, out loud
cause, heck

thats me

that person over there
lurking in the windows and the water
doesn't know who i am; anything about me
but heck,
i forget

thats me
Jan 2 · 454
Love
Foogle Jan 2
Love is an unsaid message
backspaced in a text box
an unsent email
an unexpressed emotion
unwritten on a piece of paper
love is a secret
a warming melody in the icy wind...
Jan 1 · 88
admirers
Foogle Jan 1
a single pair of searching, empty eyes
drifting, hiding all of its silent cries
more and more people, they sift through the plane
in through the single crowded lane
really, there is no end to the endless chasing
even you, you're just there, impossibly waiting
rear view mirror shows no road behind
still, you sit, awaiting one of your kind
an acrostic
Dec 2024 · 75
Healer/Breaker
Foogle Dec 2024
You can’t tally how many times ‘I love you’ was left on my lips, lingering
I just couldn’t find a time that was right, during the late of night,
an endless battle with myself, i can’t ever win
because i’m my worst enemy

Time is a healer, wounds run away from it
a slow, crawling healer, it has no magic,
no power and no ability,
yet time is a healer

Drifting away, you can’t tally how many times ‘where are you’ was left on my lips, lingering
I just never said it, because it was the middle of the bustling day
an endless battle with myself, i can’t ever win
because i’m my worst enemy

Time is a breaker, love runs away from it
a slow, crawling breaker, it has no magic,
no power and no ability,
yet time is a breaker
Dec 2024 · 224
Bracelet beads of love
Foogle Dec 2024
A bracelet beaded in nothing but love
Hanging loosely on the wrist
Seeing everything that you will
Through the sun, through the mist

Knotted slightly wrong, you know it was made by someone
who stared at the petals and took so long
threading the thin white string through
the subtle white, red purple and dark blue
Dec 2024 · 61
Hurting
Foogle Dec 2024
Its not the blood dripping from the bites
Its not the emptiness


A single thought that you cant stop rethinking
It grows and it lurks, it hurts
A memory blanched in bleach,
it changes colours when you're not watching


And it follows you into a different grey room
and sneaks up on you when you're all alone
In the harsh rain, you cant see it and you cant fight it
Its a familiar scent, something itching behind your eyelids


All accumulating in a corner you'll never watch
Sneaking on all the floorboards that wont creak
Hiding in plain sight
Dec 2024 · 776
Pink Rain
Foogle Dec 2024
And petals, they fall from the trees like pink rain that isn't wet,
suspended in wind, they drift from the sky.
They fall, searching for an answer, invisible to the average passer by, but lighting up a writers shining eyes,
who puts their palm out, in all whispering wonder,
for a glimpse of beauty as it leaves to fly in the spring wind.
This is an adapted version of a poem that was written on the 27th of August.
Dec 2024 · 69
Here
Foogle Dec 2024
Floating

Here. it’s where i’ll always be.

In this grey space i get visited.
I get plagued by the weather in my head, and sometimes, it drowns me
Can’t count how many times you’ve been here
Standing beside me
This poem was written at 4:49 pm, on November 21st.
Dec 2024 · 146
earworms
Foogle Dec 2024
When you're awake, it's a single string of text, repeating.
A single musical sting that you can hear against the polluted silence - that isn't ever silent.
They're always wriggling. Always eating.


An imaginary sensation,
You can feel but you cant touch.
An imaginary illusion.
You can see but you cant touch.


Things tend to be like that,
Like ideas,
Always elusive.


Pretty things don’t lie still; they haunt, they stare.
In the static,
you can hear them whispering.


earworms.
This poem was written at 12:49 am - (29th of December)
An 'earworm' is a tune that you can't get out of your head.
Dec 2024 · 103
Endless River
Foogle Dec 2024
and i suppose

all the days where i was angry, all the days where we weren’t fine,

don’t replay in my mind anymore.

it’s a slow beating heart, waiting for someone,

closing your eyes in the dark, nothing less than what you do every day,

a slow pulling desire you never act on, bounded by strings that you have strung up in sleep,

a slow pulling thought tying up everything loose.

And for the endless river that nobody can see, you’re in it, thigh deep, walking.

i guess you just learn how to swim at some point.

i guess you become your own life buoy.

the slimy algae beneath your paddling feet, you lost your grip,

a long time ago.
This poem was written at 3:30 am on the 23rd of December.
It’s an endless river out there.
Dec 2024 · 71
12:03 am
Foogle Dec 2024
And the wind outside, it’s speaks against the window frame,

a reflection of the desolate mind.

the quiet pedestrian who ventures in the dark,

avoiding the cracks in the sidewalk, they stroll,

they watch the grass blow in the night,

swaying in the light of the moon.

The cars on the freeway will howl,

the silence polluted, the mind unempty and yet, dead,

like a lethargic bug, crawling along the dirt,

overtired and yet unsleeping.
This poem was written at 12:03 am on October 9th
Dec 2024 · 90
In The Dark
Foogle Dec 2024
Leaving someone in the dark like that, while your fingers are interlaced in a web of made up trust,

do you think the people left at the bottom of the hole, the other end of the line, do they survive?

Do you think they can ever learn to try again?

And you ended up liking books and boys, I ended up here, without everything I gave to you,

a part of my love gone forever,

lost to the void, a broken toy, a plan with no ploy,

a difference becoming what id always feared, you became someone I could never be; never see,

someone id stay away from, swear to never know, never show,

forgive but never forget, hurt but never regret.

In the dark, we left each other in no words and no burns, almost as if we never knew one another,

parts of our selves intertwined within identity that became our own,

without a relationship to atone,

we fizzled out, like popsicles melted on a hot sidewalk,

our conversations talked, our journey chalked.

— The End —