Bits of it scatter
Unfocused and unruly
Glitching every muscle under the skin
Fabricating itself to the very core
After I blink, it is no where to be seen
Only in memory is where it lives
My thoughts are to last longer

Everytime, in any place, when fully attentive
Recognizable sequences trigger every move I make
Same person, different face
Donations of my soul restore what lacks of yours
Some time if not every time, you adulate as intensely in return
Problematically, no matter dire, versions of you net me back
My wonder of how is hardly fathomable currently
I just see you

Can't carry physically
Can't carry mentally
You only fit between my eyes and sight
Where I swear I see you
The only undoubting truth is realization
When I wake up, I wish I could find you

I can't say you were my first love
I can't say you are my true love
I'm not sure if I should love
When I can't even trust myself
I just love
As I love you

Maybe you are my love
Even if I'm not real