It's apparent as of late that something I fought to rid myself of for well over a decade is finding it's way back to its original space right ****** here. As if it it was my fate and here I thought I had made a grand escape.. well ha hold on tight cause it's coming its here and its to late to save face. Its time to fight again from here on out for my very own life and ohhh the rage. I know it by heart and I know better but yet here we stand again hand in hand I am scared to death of all that I am. Its a ******* nightmare as always my very own mistake. Being ripped apart piece by piece and each piece displayed on its very own ****** stake. The physical signs of this hostel take over are already here at first I seen them in the mirror but now I see it through the eyes of those that are near and I wonder if they feel sorry for me or if they are just sickened of what I am becoming. My mind will be next and then my heart. Its only mission though right from the start was to devour my soul right from the very start. and I feel it smiling this time  like it knows the fall will come this time and I feel already unable to stand an fight for what is right and bright and good.. Always 'N' forever my special friend you were... Not very pure I concur but none the less you dazzled me with your sparkling allure.
You were always so very sure, an certain, an not the least bit insecure. Your an evil friend of this I'm sure. An now that it's nearing the end I have but nothing left always n forever you whispered to me many years ago from the very start you warmed my heart little did I know you would tear me apart no more heart and now in the end we see your true desire is to take weak souls higher and higher what a ******* liar. *******