You pretend to like me...
You say you care,
but those lies,
i couldn't be less aware,
I raised to your voice,
I fell to your touch,
I didn't do what you said!
At least,
Not much.

I wanted friends!
I wanted to be in your life!
but yours is pain,
And mine is strife.

Sticks and stones,
may break my bones,
But at least I'm not like you.
At least I'm not part of your "crew".

You make me belong,
You're right,
You're wrong,

Everywhere is still
Everything is restless in my heart
I hate the way this feels
Suddenly I'm scared to be apart

The days are dark when you're not around
The air is getting hard to breathe
I wish that you'd just put me down
I wish that I could go to sleep

Loving you is suicide
I don't know should I go or should I stay
I'm trying to keep myself alive
Knowing there's a chance it's all too late

But I heard you say you loved me
That's the part I can't forget
And I wish that you'd come save me
Cause I'm standing over the edge

I should let you go
Tell myself the things I need to hear
But my brain is why you're wrong
That's why I'm loving you when you're not here

Feels like I drown in your every word
And every breath that's in between
Somehow you got me where it really hurts
It's killing every part of me


But I heard you say you loved me
That's the part I can't forget
And I wish that you'd come save me
Cause I'm standing over the edge

Loving you is suicide
And my world's about to break
And I've had as much as I can take
And love is a long way down

Loving you is suicide
And it's getting harder everyday
I'm trying to keep myself alive
Knowing there's a chance it's all too late

And I'm way past every moment
But I'm still determined to fight
And I know it's taking all my strength
To keep emotions alive

Loving you is suicide

I want to end it all,
I want to help myself,
I want to be selfless,

"have you tried?
that's the question"

"the question is:
do I want to try?"

"trying is always worth it."

Sometimes I lose track of what the question is

Will you try?

Why don't you

I call you up,
you turn me down.

I try to smile
but i only frown

Dear, People

When tomorrow starts without me
And I'm not there to see
I wish so much you wouldn't cry
The way you did today
While thinking of the many things
We didn't get to say

Two slit wrists with a scythe
Too ****** up, had to leave this life
Two slit wrists with a scythe
Too ****** up, had to leave this life

It's no joke, too low
I can't cope, smoke dope for the pain
One glock, one shot, point it straight at my brain
Do not resuscitate, told you don't hesitate
I put a end to the voice in my head
Nobody ever listened to what I said
What I said, Nobody ever listened to what I said
I don't really **** with the rest
Young kid flex put the blade to ya neck
One more step, *****, you lose your head
No one remember the **** that you did

I made myself what I am
I turned myself into the man
I made this dough in my hand
But still you don't understand
Don't understand
It takes dedication and some discipline
Talent, drugs and experience
But to be honest, living life, I'm sick of it
Even if the money's still coming in
Even though people still bump my ****
**** the world
Death sounding luxurious
Look in my eyes
If you don't think I'm serious
That's why...

Two slit wrists with a scythe
Too ****** up, had to leave this life
Two slit wrists with a scythe
Too ****** up, had to leave this life
Two slit wrists with a scythe
Too ****** up, had to leave this life
Two slit wrists with a scythe
Too ****** up, had to leave this life

                                                               ­                            -Love Nia