How I long for the bliss of oblivion
Just a blackness, all encompassing
Covering me, enfolding me
In its emptiness
A ‘life’ without feeling
Without emotion
Without pain ……
I am lured by its seductive call
Getting stronger day by day
Is that hell?
Certainly not heaven if by my choosing
By my hand
An end to the heartache
To be just …….. nothing

Take me for who I am, not what you want me to be
Faults and flaws all together, make the person you see
No hourglass figure, but pretty eyes so I am told
“Meat on the bones”, more to hug and to hold!

A heart so gentle, so much love to go around
More for that special person, not easily found
A passion for laughter, good times to be had
No time for lies, that just makes me feel sad

Family and friends, the most important thing
Share in the love and comfort they bring
My sons, my whole world, my reason for living
The love of a mother, powerful and giving

A ‘bestie’ , a sister , a daughter, an aunt
All powerful titles, unto me have been grant
So this is me and my life, and willing to share
My friendship, my love, to cherish and care

My mind races to capture the cacophony of poetic soup
That simmers in my thoughts
Striving to correlate and blend thoughts, words, sounds and nuances,
Of the written verse
To produce a smooth, rich, soul feeding bounty
Of poetry, to feed my hunger

Like a rolling mist I wish the clouds in my mind would dissipate
As letters are typed,
Spilling onto the page in front of me, resonating with a timbre of desperation
Lest the flow subsides
Leaving me an empty vessel of frustration and the loneliness of
A poet with no words

My journey down life’s path is a long one
With many highs and an abundance of lows
Yet here I stand, head held high
Taking whatever life my way throws

Forty six years ago we find the beginning
Where my reason for being has its start
Born to such amazing parents, mom and dad
From that day a family, never to be apart

Raising me was no easy task I am told
Strong-willed and determined to be
Always right and get my own way
A wild spirit waiting to soar free

But persevere my parents did do
And loved me, no conditions in place
Raising me with a firm foundation
Upon which to build and embrace

And so too do I love my children
And hope I have shown the same
As my parent’s unconditional love
So proud of whom they became

Life will come around full circle
Remember what you reap is what you sow
So be true, and honest and above all else
To yourself your deepest love should bestow

For love can and will conquer all
Of everything thrown our way
Celebrate your life and family too
So forever, together you’ll stay

Falling deeper into this pit of despair
Clawing, fighting a way out
Why does it seem so hard?
Plagued with pity and self-doubt!

Dark, scared and lonely is my life
Seemingly endless days of pain
Who will help me?
Strident cries for release in vain!

Daylight beckons on the far horizon
Just a flicker of life giving light
Come to rescue me?
From this my life’s plight!

So onward and upward steadily
Clutching at eternal hope
Is it my time?
Please, someone, help me to cope!

Made of steel yet her heart so soft
Opening arms to comfort all who seek
The anchor of the family binding together
Her love knows no bounds or limitations
Enveloping all she cares for in her warmth
R*ichly blessing all who are honoured to call her *Mother

I sit here, lost and alone
Wishing I was gone from this earth but not wanting to die
The sadness, the helplessness overwhelms me
And I cry

Where is my “light at the end of the tunnel”?
The bleakness of my future extending with no break
Stretching out before me
And I fear

The daily grindstone that wears me down
Powered by my steps through this life
Not daring to stop
And I tremble

But life continues, with the world passing by
A façade of normalcy in place
I move ahead
And I hope