I pull at the signum underneath my solid black shirt
wondering why this time is so different
Ever since I could call him mine
I have done nothing but try
And not get anything in return
Why do you hurt so much?
Why do you want me to cry all of the time?
I have no more room for sadness or tears
Yet you make room
saying it is the last time
Promising never again
But when my life takes a wrong turn
you break a little more,
leaving the shards stuck inside
Left for me to pick up the pieces
Then you want to start all over
Like it never happened at all
Dear heart; why him?
You don’t just wake up one morning and stop loving somebody
love is forever
Why try to make me forger?
I write it all down
You can’t erase my mind!
You can’t make me forget
All the things I love about him
I wouldn't change a single thing
You can’t make him disappear!
Dear heart; why are you doing this to me?
Dear heart; why do I love him so much?

I ran through the moss covered trees
sounds echoing with every step i take
the rush of water
fills my ears
As i'm running,
all i see are colors:
Beautiful pinks, blues, and purples.
My sensitive feet supported
by my favorite pair of converse
I look down at my feet
and see a blur of
gold, brown, and green
the grass, mud, and leaves
as i kept my constant speed
i shut my eyes for a minute
then i realized  that i had stopped
i kept my eyes closed
using my ears,
to hear my surroundings
i open my eyes and look around
Beautiful mountains
and cliffs created
the perfect scene
i walked to the edge
…. and……..
jumped……...

When I fall
LIfe will be beautiful
Like a thousand stars
shinning in the night sky
When I finally die;
my body will make every one see
how the world really is
Without you there to constantly bug me
about all I think is peaceful
My feathery black wings
never to open again
Never to support me the next time I
loose my balance
While I am falling
It will be like I am in a movie
A really slow motion movie
I will be slower than my heartbeat
Gently thumping like it should
Clouds surrounding me
Trickles of raindrops
falling one by one
just like us
When I fall
Every bodys dream worlds will collide
To form a world of our own
When I die
We will all finally…..
……. be free...

LIfe with no hear
is nothing but a myth
Tears of love and hate dwell upon my face
life is too short for distractions
Most of my words are lost within time
feeding itself to nothing
As the sun rises and sets
Every morning and night
The book of my life opens
and closes at the slightest touch
The cool December air sends chills down my spine
People say that you only live once
But really,
you live every day of your life
Until you die…..
Then you relive under certain circumstances
To explain how it feels
to open up my cover
and read mhy pages word for word
To take in all of my imperfections
and unfaithfullness
My cover full of leaves and vines
Guns and knives
My pages filled with 17th century style words
All flowing evenly on the parchment
So deep and fragile……..