I’m disgusted by you
By your inability to shut up,
And to point out my flaws.
How you reject my feelings,
They mean nothing.
But even more, I disgust myself-
Cause your right.
And I hate your for it.
For adding to my insecurity,
Plummeting my self worth,
For adding to my sad thoughts-
They’re already there.
I hate you,
But I hate myself more.
For letting you affect me,
For giving you power over me,
For letting myself sink into depression
Whenever I see your face.
I hate me me more than I hate you.
I know it’s wrong,
But I honestly don’t know what I’d do without you.
And that’s what I hate the most-
I’d be lost.