adamaris

adamaris Feb 2019

Waiting

The things once left me have come back.
The one knowing my secrets has never spilled.
The one who is hilarious has been talking to me again.
The one who has once been my best friend is not yet back.

If it's meant to be it'll come back it might hurt but it'll make a U turn for you at some point it's only temporary you'll find someone else or they'll come back!

I'll be waiting best friend I hope you come back.

My cousin is still fun and all we're just not hanging out as much.

adamaris Nov 2018

I don't even know

My soul is ghost playing hide& seek only to be hiding for weeks

Cause no one ever looks in me
No one thinks I'm a possibility

My feelings are waiting to be overfilled
Only to be never thrilled

My soul is a champion never to be found
Only to be thrown on the ground

I am over judged
And my frown hasn't budged

All my thoughts are kicking in
Everyone's breaking in

My heart is feeling empty
And it breaks in peices of twenty

Everyone comes and go's
My memories are being overthrown by you

What am I doing wrong?
Why does this sound kinda like a song?

Anyway good bye!

This was random

adamaris Nov 2018

Ricky

Right now you have a girlfriend, a high schooler you are 14.

I see you staring at me like I did, staring at them only to pretend you weren't

Classes together,you are in a seat behind me it let's you see me without being seen

Kind, I have a vibe around you that you are really just kind just bottled up

You seemed to show signs you like me last year why not much now?

I like two people this person is aliitle bit better than Alan

adamaris Nov 2018

Alan

Amazingly adorable

Loving humor

An amazing friend

Now i am a nobody

(my crush from "my problems")

adamaris Nov 2018

my problems

friends understanding
not all the time
people think i am alright
because i have no siblings

i want hugs from people but i am too uncomfortable
i want help from someone like me
friends laugh when i am serious because i am shorter
no one know the things i do
my cousin who is my best friend has started talking to me
   less
          and
                less
she has been the friend i needed
she has stood up for me
showed me many things
only to leave

my new friend is funny and makes me smile
he is my crush now
now he has stopped talking to me

my friends make fun i just feel childish and annoying as i sit alone only to watch and listen to the conversations around only to make judgements about myself many friends think i'm alright since i'm alway like this

             what is happening?

my friends don't deserve to be involved
all i can do is hope i keep forgetting

  my eyes torture me as i see my crush is smiling
and it was caused by someone who isn't me
i feel empty i could only keep it in

may not be a poem or it may be i'm just writing my problems only to finally get them out

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