Foaming at the mouth like a rabid dog. Enraged, no longer seeing reason just the hurt that you have caused.
Eyes blur as unwanted tears break like a dam overrun.
I want to hit something I have before the door can attest to that. But I refuse to lose that much control I can't, not again.
With slipping fingers I somehow hold the anger back just enough.
walk away nails pressed deep in my palms. Just trying to flee, distance I know I need.
Your daggered words follow shredding even more of my heart.
The anger begs to be let go, pleads for me to fall down the rabbit hole.  
Exhausted the blankets greet my body and the pillow absorbs the sobs.
Anger has lost the fight because I simply can't muster up the will to move.
You are beneath me, who would want you if not me? You're so alone because nobody can stand you.
Your words echo through the silence over and over. The only escape is the dark dreamless sleep that envelops me.

If hurtful words were brands my whole body would be scarred with them.
Not a single part of my flesh would be clear.
But words arnt brands and you cant see the way they hurt.

Heart shredded by shattered fantasy
No longer bound by happy memories
The illusions no longer hide the truth
You were always selfish I just never knew
Blinded by my childlike love for you
Things I'm glad I never understood
cuz little girls shouldn't know what prison is
No one wanted to share the truth
Never knew the man you were
Just the mask you wore for me
All that love from memories gone
Saw the true man behind the mask
Through silence you said it all
As tears streamed down the face of the abandoned
What a coward you truly turned out to be

Not giving into the anger holding back the demons whispering in my mind..
definence.
Yell to be heard over you running over my my calm words..
Attention seeking *****.
Say I don't want to do this anymore leave me alone..
Running away like a *****.
Stop blaming me for everything your not a Saint..
Playing the victim.
Breaking dams rivers run in frustration..
Weak.
Give into the demons say those nasty things same as you..
Two wrongs don't make a right.
Say things based on past events..
Oh you know the future now?
It never changes how can I win?... leavings the only thing left.
Slipping off that band of gold and sparkle..
Done!

Everyday wake up with it
See it in the eyes that stare back at me
Feel it within burning away at my soul
Hate
Not for others but for the self
Those eyes the ones the mirror reflects
They show everything
All the pain the anger every little scar
Life snuffed out the light
So now it burns away a darkened soul
Hate
Soon it will consume me whole

The sky like me feels this pain
Letting the heavens rain,
Letting it pour
Light and gentle at first it falls,
Dew drops falling from a rose
Faster it falls soaking me through
Rain wash over me
Wash out this heavy heart
With healing waters repair these wounds, just leave scars
Rain wash over me
Clear the vision of these blurry eyes,
Wash away the tears
Take away this ache in me,
This piercing of my heart
Rain wash over me
Light and gentle at first it fall,
Dew drops falling from a rose

Her voice like an echo the tolling of a bell ringing over and over. Every flaw and doubtful moment she drones on about. She echos your words alot but locked away behind my eyes you don't see the torture that comes from within. Most days I keep her quiet I can find something to bring a smile but when times are quiet or if times are hard she flares up to bounce the same words you throw at me tell I feel near nothing anymore my only wish to be gone. No more pain and torture from life no more rotting from the inside out. Then like a blanket covering me i pass into dreamlessness nothing but darkness as I shut down.

Bruises cover your face and mask your eyes tears spill over broken skin.
No words escape your mouth you just shake and I watch.
Tenderly I try to wipe away the mess but the pains to great and I watch you fall apart.
With one swift move see everything come crashing to the ground  See the broken woman lying on the floor.
Not so beautiful and strong now.
Pull your hair back and slip off the robe to reveal every bruise.
Every wonder woman gets hurt only so much you can take.
Hating you for the mistakes you made. Judging you on your worst day.
No sympathy as I watch you put your shattered thoughts in place. Run my hands over every purple pink bloom despite the pain.  
Push that blade into your palm. No life is worth this.
See you press it against those old scars. A drop of crimson forms and time stops. In the beat of your heart it'll be done. Catching eyes with me you just stare...The blade drops
I was just your reflection staring back at you.
Nothing I could do no words I could speak after all they aren't my own only yours.
Watching you through identical eyes. Being the only one to see every scar every tear you spilled to see the damage no one cared to see.
Lost in the lonely your life became. I wish I could have reached through and saved you but I was just the woman in the mirror.