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Rachel Upton Sep 2018
Once a heart bound and tangled
Surrounding myself to ward off anyone who might of cared
A reminder of the pain if I ever tried to leave
these protective vines and thorns of steel
Afraid and timid, but lonely and wanting
you saw this and didn't run
thought that something could be done
that what was done could be undone
Saw that I'd lost hope
Lost hope in love and trust
lost hope and wouldn't free myself from my rusted prison
In making your way through my jumbled mess you became entangled
Entangled in these cruel wires of pain and protectiveness of mine
Once there I pushed and pulled away
only hurting us both
Wanting to love but finding it hard to do
We truly had a barbed wire love
Once giving in
I learned to trust
learned to believe in love
Easier the longer i tried
Learned to love and hold on to you
No longer pulling through these vines
No longer pushing you through
That prison now our home
Tho painful at first
We survived
Now happily entangled in our
Barbed wired love
A poem I found while packing my house to move. This is one I wrote in high school when I was just finding out what it was to love someone
Rachel Upton Jul 2018
Everyday wake up with it
See it in the eyes that stare back at me
Feel it within burning away at my soul
Hate
Not for others but for the self
Those eyes the ones the mirror reflects
They show everything
All the pain the anger every little scar
Life snuffed out the light
So now it burns away a darkened soul
Hate
Soon it will consume me whole
Rachel Upton Apr 2018
Heart shredded by shattered fantasy
No longer bound by happy memories
The illusions no longer hide the truth
You were always selfish I just never knew
Blinded by my childlike love for you
Things I'm glad I never understood
cuz little girls shouldn't know what prison is
No one wanted to share the truth
Never knew the man you were
Just the mask you wore for me
All that love from memories gone
Saw the true man behind the mask
Through silence you said it all
As tears streamed down the face of the abandoned
What a coward you truly turned out to be
Rachel Upton Apr 2018
Shaky broken breaths ripped from the lungs
Soft sobs smothered by feathers and fabric
It can't be heard but the pain is overwhelming
As another piece of her heart crumbles
Lonely
The only soul in a queen size bed
Reaching out for someone but getting sheets instead
Tossing and turning trying to find comfort in dreams
But finding herself staring at the ceiling instead
So very lonely
Left broken by a love she thought was real
Left shattered by words that burn
Found comfort in arms from the past
A few moments of healing love
But out of those moments left feeling less than who she is
Lonely
Tired of this feeling
Tired of holding in words that burn her heart
She is tired but must stay quiet
Must keep the love for one and the hate for another secret
Must learn to be lonely
Must learn to live with the secrets of her heart
Lonely

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