Why do they have to pretend they like you. Do they think it will make you feel better if they lie to
you. To let you believe they love you and want you, to only find out they never wanted you in the
first place. As soon as they find out you want them too they take that opportunity to use you and
take advantage of what you have to offer. Maybe I want someone to hold me. someone to tell
me they love me and really mean it. to let me know everything is ok and that I will never be on
my own. Someone to take the pain away and wipe my tears. someone who will make me forget
all my fears. Someone to believe I am beautiful just the way I am and not want to change
anything about me. Someone that I can love with everything I am and get it back in return.
Someone who won't lie to me and pretend to be something he’s not. Someone who will let me
help them chase all their demons away and take their breath away. Why can’t I have this maybe
it is not possible for me to love. Maybe I am unlovable and incapable of the compassion others
want. Maybe I’m better off on my own, being all alone so I don’t burden anyone why my hidden
scars or to let you know that you everything I need you keep me on my feet you keep me
breathing. Think of you, you can’t see me and what I think of you I wish all my dreams would
come true but I guess I got what I asked for when I met you. But then again not everything will
go my way because no one promised me that you would stay. So I will say goodbye to you, it
hurts so bad but you never knew how deeply i fell in love with you, but now it’s too late and
everything is gone. I’m falling down falling apart but you don’t seem to care as long as I let you
go I guess it’s all fair.

What do you do when you have nothing left to say.
When all you want to do is sit in your room and weep quietly to yourself,
to never re appear into the world
never having to look someone in the face again and tell them everything is ok,
to fake a smile and hide what you’re feeling inside.
You know it doesn’t feel right when you cry,
it’s almost as if you don’t deserve to cry because you know somewhere someone is way worse off than you are.  
You know you shouldn’t but you can’t help but to let the tears fall from your eyes slowly.
your heart is shattering and you don’t know why you always feel like you’re ruining everything.
When you feel the need to apologize for everything and you can’t help but question everything.
You want to let your guard down,
let the walls you built come tumbling down but you just can’t because you will never trust yourself to love fully and with all of yourself again.
You can’t trust someone to get their grip on your heart because you never know when they are gonna let it fall to the ground and throw it away like it means nothing.
So you hold it in and you never let go because you can’t set yourself free again.
Because all you can do is fall and those walls keep you walking straight with your head held high and your heart high out of the reach of everyone who could harm it.