What's the perfect guy
If he's not perfect for you

What do you even mean
That's not right
You shouldn't be with him.

I don't give half of a ****
About what you have to say
So you won't affect my actions.

Don't worry
When you flip on me
I'm not going to care then either
So don't even waste your breath

I want to do something big with my life
And I don't know what that is.
I wish I knew what I'm going to do
So I could get on the right path.

Because right now
The biggest thing I have done in my life
Is **** everything up.

I am not
Scared of
                      dying

And I believe
That's the most
Terrifying thing
I have ever written

And yet it
Is the most
Powerful thing
About me.

I am very quickly beginning to hate the person I have become

And everyone around me is assuring me that I have every reason not to be loved

Even from myself

I guess it's comforting to know that one day I won't be here anymore.

Everyone wants this sad sob story
Like some sort of excuse
for the way I feel.

And I'm sorry that I can't give you that.
Because the saddest thing that has happened to me
hasn't really happened to me.

So I don't know why I'm so upset.
I have no reason to
Other than the fact
that only ****** people exist.

And I too am in existence.

So who the **** is gonna pity
Some ****** person like myself.

Waiting for the day
For you to call me
When I'm looking at flowers
Instead of up at the stars

Tonight I decided
I really deserve all of this.

It's my own fault
It's my own decisions
It's my own guilt.

Tonight I did something
In which I deserve no forgiveness.

I do not expect it
Because I meant what I did
And when I apologize
Know it has no meaning.

So I guess I don't know what to do anymore

Because my actions of tonight
Will hurt a lot of people.

People that I care a lot about
Or that's what I tell myself.

Maybe that's why.

Maybe my bark is bigger than my bite.
Because when I hug you goodbye
And say love you
It means just as much as my apology.



I'm sorry.









But no sincerity.

Don't even listen to me
I have no idea what the ****
I am talking about

But honestly


Please show me someone who does.

But what if this time
When you say goodbye
It really is forever

Keep in mind
You're just like your friends.

So choose wisely
Because no matter how different you think you are
No one else can tell the difference.