No matter how hard I try
To ignore these thoughts within
They are there.
And I can't change how I feel
But I hope to change
How I show you.

I was lonely
And he was charming

He showed me comfort
And you didn't bother to text me

I can't say I regret it
Because you've shown me no reason to.

Just know
that our comprehension
of each other
through communication
is furthest understood
through words.

And words have a limit.

So maybe we
are just beyond that.

Tonight I decided
I really deserve all of this.

It's my own fault
It's my own decisions
It's my own guilt.

Tonight I did something
In which I deserve no forgiveness.

I do not expect it
Because I meant what I did
And when I apologize
Know it has no meaning.

So I guess I don't know what to do anymore

Because my actions of tonight
Will hurt a lot of people.

People that I care a lot about
Or that's what I tell myself.

Maybe that's why.

Maybe my bark is bigger than my bite.
Because when I hug you goodbye
And say love you
It means just as much as my apology.



I'm sorry.









But no sincerity.

But what if this time
When you say goodbye
It really is forever

I think up
This great fantasy
Of moving away

I think that
I need a new setting

But it hasn't taken me long
To realize

It's not this place

It is my mindset.