"Read 11:28"

ouch.
it's more than a notification
it's a feeling.
a sad one.
that makes you feel empty
like your words weren't enough
for that text back you've been waiting for,
but you still wait. and wait. and wait.
but all it said was "Read 11:28".

It's time

It's time now, to say goodbye my friend
It's time for me and you to come to an end
You had me feeling all kinds of ways
But I guess those were the better days
It's time now for me to see what's real
It's time for me to change how I feel.

I met a killer once.
Actually I met them all.
They all killed the person I used to be.

They locked up the things that made me truly happy.
They cut off the people that made life worthwhile.
They paid off the girl I used to see and smile.
Finally they killed me, they changed me. They won.

I met a killer once.
Actually I met them all.
They killed the person I used to be.

That April date
Who knew it'd be the last
That we were enjoying life
The day went by so fast

The day ended and I said goodbye
Instead of goodnight
But you just smiled and hours later
Turned out your light

Besides a memory, you're nothing more than you were before
Twelve years of being solemn
You tried to change that so hard
Instead to them you're just idolized by a newspaper column

You're missed now
But you thought it was time to go,
Now Your hands clasped together
for an infinity or so

It's been some time now
And things don't feel the same
For your soul is missing from this life
And we all feel like we're to blame

Above all thoughts I guess
You thought life wasn't meant to be
You felt like your soul was in prison
And death was the only way to set it free

Three years later
And you're not around
But your memory lingers around me
Forever, as a beautiful, lifelong sound

In heaven you're free from pain
And surrounded by love
And now you are my angel
Watching from above

4/17/14