I just want to die so we can kick it
Maybe spark up a blunt in little hell
Or say oh my god with a bottle of gin in heaven
I remember you used to say I don't care I'm going to die
I should have figured out and asked you why
Even if I knew all along, not just a hunch
My questions were far more than a bunch
Like a grenade you threw and kept me away
You said it's for my best, and I know this sounds cliché
I lost my girl, my ride or die
We said we would do so much
Get high, drunkdrive and fly
I hope you're good wherever you are
Maybe with Lil Peep on a big star
I'll never forgive this world for what it did to you
I'll spend my life to make it right for you
Try to give you some justice
Or maybe it's just me, trying to get through.

I wanted to say I love you
But I didn't
Not because I don't, but because I do

I'm empty
Like the house you lived your whole life in is empty
When the last moving box is gone
And all the memories will just be in the back of your head, until they as well are gone
I'm empty
Like a new house in a new city
When everything is unpacked and moving boxes are laying everywhere, empty
The house is full of furniture, but it's still empty
All your thoughts and memories are left behind
Like the Polaroid of your deceased dog that you had hidden under the staircase
That is now forgotten 145 miles away
I'm empty
Like a school in July
I'm empty
Like the streets of a ghost town
I'm empty
Like my mind on Prozac
This feeling of emptiness is by far the worst feeling I've ever had
Because at least when I was sad, I was sad
I still had something that made me feel alive, here, breathing
Not just existing
I miss the sadness, the raw reality of being alive
Because now, all I am
Is empty