I wish your love came without conditions
If I don't do everything you ask are you still going to love me
All those years you told me I was inferior
I found someone who told me I was enough
Oversharing on the internet with absolute strangers
Male validation is better than no validation right?
I wish you knew how much your words affected me

All the sudden
The earth was warm
And it hit me
What scared me the most
Was laying alone
And realizing I never really wanted to die

We take for granted all we have
The love we lost or the heart we still have

Counting down the days until graduation. Nobody prepares you for how quickly one last year turns into 14 more days.  Senior sunrise was the kickoff to this year and although sunrise is coming so much faster than I ever expected I'm excited and scared. I've wanted to get away from them as far back as I can remember but was it them or was everything my fault? Did they try everything to help me I was always ungrateful or too emotional. Was my mom really abusive or was I too sensitive? Was my dad violent or was I overdramatic? Were they bad parents or were they just struggling with their own traumas? To the people we all could been if this cycle had ended.

My father's shirts always loose
His shoes a little too big
His anger however fit me just right