Tristan

Tristan Dec 2018

I'm dying just to feel alive.
Taking in all the darkness.
So they can see the light.

Tristan Nov 2018

Don't think you're alone
On this dark night
As I stand beside you
We've both been given a hard life
And are in need of a light

We have one another
Yet still there's a void
A hole in our heart's
Not that we don't care for one another
Just that this world has torn us apart

I wish we could be normal
And that I could tell you
You complete me
Or that I am perfectly fine
But that will never happen
We will never be able to be okay
With who we are in our mind's

It's a world class juggling act
With our lives hanging in the balance
And if one of us falls
Then we both will die from the challenge
Although we aren't complete
Our eyes will still meet
As we soar through the air
Embracing our despair
Whispering gently
Don't cry it will be okay
Now we can be together
For the rest of our days.

I wrote this while in my last relationship that just ended yesterday, I never posted it until now. I'm not really sure why I am even now but oh well, writing is one of the only things I can turn to.

Tristan Nov 2018

Pain

How can it hurt so much
To lose someone who was hurting me
Without a care in the world

Tristan Oct 2018

What do I do

I hate this feeling
Useless
As I watch you in pain
Unable to do a thing
I won't leave your side
And I know that means something
Unending loyalty
But still my mind spins
Crushed by the unbearable sins
Was it my fault
Is there something more I can do
To make you feel better
To mend your broken soul
I wish you would tell me
So I could give it all up
Give everything to you
So I could have a clue
As to what to do
And not feel so useless
Sitting next to you

It's hard life when you care more about others than you do yourself.

Tristan Oct 2018

I like you (reverse poem)

Can we be more than friends
Something more than this
I just need to know
Is there somewhere we can go
So we can be alone

(Now read back to the top)

Just a simple question that scares me more than most things. The possibility to lose a friend. My first try doing a reverse poem.

Tristan Oct 2018

Please don't go

Should I leave now
Or should I let you in
Break down my walls
And see the light again
I've been so lonely in my mind
That it makes it hard to find
A reason not to push you away
A reason not to leave today

I recently met someone who I feel like I have a genuine connection with, which for me doesn't happen often. So I don't know whether to open myself up because I am afraid of being alone again.

Tristan Oct 2018

Coping

I write not for others
But for me
And the person I want to be
These insecurities and small things
That burden me
I throw them away
Onto this paper