It's better to face darkness
With eyes closed
Than to face light with eyes wide open
My hope shyly hides
Praying for the return of light
My fears peacefully rest
In the absence of light

I hear spiders crawling
A buzz of bees behind my ears
They don’t scare me
Not more than the flickering light I see
It draws me out of darkness
Raising resting hopes and dreams

The surrounding darkness is peaceful
The light shows friendly hurting faces
I find comfort in the ignorance of who hurt me
Torture in the sight of friend

Blame not the demon for tearing me down
But the angel for not offering a hand
The buried see and weep
The live do not and  rejoice

Forgive me if I stare
Your celestial body is alluring

The beauty of your eyes,
rob me of words to say
The warmth of your smile, paralyzes my hands so I can’t sign

Forgive me for yearning for you,
For having you is forbidden.
My eyes see you as Juliet to the Romeo I am,
Forgive me, for the sin we are yet commit.

Forgive my mind for losing restraint at the striking site of you,
I stare at your lips, and my mouth gets watery at the wonder of it’s taste.

Oh blessed river, forgive