My happiness relies on how much I sleep
and the dreams I get to keep

"And in the end,
we were all just humans...
drunk on the idea that love
that only love
could heal our brokenness."

Earthquakes in my head oh how they wish me dead.
Migraines banging against my skull
then i fall.
Sea of angst, hear my plea! Stop letting jealousy wash over me.
Sympathy, don't leave.
Kindness, steal my heart.
........I don't want to fall apart........
Shatter the windows, shake the halls.
Tsunamis rage on and on.
Critics smirk and poets dream
while i sit on the floor and SCREAM.

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Earthquakes in my head, oh how they wish me dead. Maigrains hitting against my skull, then i fall.
Every day is like a hurricane.
Emotions raging on and on.


Can i feel just one moment of peace?
Wait.
No.
Stop.
i think i just heard a voice softly speak:
          

                     "Be still and quiet
that's the art of the silent.
Feelings can become too strong.
                                                         ­           just
                                                                ­                 let  
                                                           ­                           it
                                   ­                                                           all
  ­                                                                 ­                                    fall

"I must confess
that in my quest
I have become depressed
and restless."

Noises in the dark frighten me,
especially when they scream.

Where are you?
I look around empty corners
and across crowded streets
but you're nowhere to be found.
I once thought I had found you,
riding heaven lights that broke through stormy sick clouds.
You left happiness in your wake.
But now,
I am certain
that was not you.
Why don't you seek me out?
Do you not know of me either?
I wish
to make myself known
to you
for the very core of my being burns for your understanding nature.
Please,
end my loneliness.
Find me.
Or, perhaps, allow me
to find you.