I closed my eyes
So I could see
What my naked eye
Can't see

I secretly know how you feel
You thought what I feel for you ain't real
Thinking, I'm just takin' you for granted
But know this, you're all I ever wanted
I can't blame you if you have doubts
Your name is what my heart shouts
I don't know how to make you feel secure
And make you feel this love's pure

I was once drowned in pain
Suffered more than I could bear
Scars and poisons in my vein
Afraid It might turn fresh again
Can I still continue this?
Can I still fight for this?
Seems like it's about to repeat
I'm down and curled up in defeat

I'm lost in madness thinkin'
The devil inside me brewin'
Waitin', for you to be seen
Darker than it has ever been

I know you're hurting
I know you're sad
I'm ready to listen
Come closer and lean
You're all I have
Please tell me, love
I can't sleep
I'm thinking so deep
How can I be helpful
Of a beautiful lovin' soul

I feel so naive and immature
But you're the only thing that I'm sure
Indecisive decisions that I make
Considering lots of options for our sake

I feel so useless around you
You're so out of my league boo
Don't worry, I'm trying my best baby
To conquer all these anxiety

Step by step we'll reach our goals
Hand by hand with loving souls
I'm trying my everything to think less
Praying every night for our happiness

Every time I cared
I'm gettin' more scared
Realized everything I fear
Is true and that is clear

How can I trust others?
If my roots were the reason behind these tears?
Slowly soaking up this painful reality
Bearing this shameful insincerity

There are a few that I truly trust
That even though I feel a little lost
I know they're always there by my side
And their always there to guide

Now I'm still learning to forgive
I still have a lot to achieve
I have so many goals in mind
Waiting for me to be bind

Always left behind
Always seems so blind
In my eyes you're one of a  kind
And someone like you is so hard to find

You move in a mysterious way
I'm always out of words to say
I honestly don't know how to pay
Love and attention you give everyday

Blazin' with rage
Busted my gauge
Torned memory page
Tormented you in a cage

Seize this fire
I'll make you my sire
My dream will come true
I'll give you a clue

I can be your lover
But I'm a torturer
Beware my defier
I'm your greatest nightmare

Caught up in the moment with your gaze
And all I can see is your charming face
Reborn in a different place
You're the one thing I'll forever chase

In my heart I'll keep you close
Despite every bit of your precious flaws
You'll always be the one I'll choose
I'm the electricity and you'll be my fuse

You're mysterious in a good intriguing way
I want to know you but I don't know what to say
So down in my bed I lay
As my thoughts tell me everything's okay

Someday somehow, maybe we'll be together
And the moments we share I'll always remember
Though waiting for 'us' seems like forever
The future with you and me,  I'll be the infinite believer

I thought I saw you today
"It's not you, please.", I pray
Relief, run through my veins
As if, I'm free from hideous chains

You're all over the place
I hide, you chase
I'm still afraid
These memories won't fade

Scared to see you again
Afraid my efforts would all go in vain
You're a beautiful nightmare indeed
You taunt me awake in bed

I really didn't mean to stop
Just started again from the top
Had my treasured mem'ries to keep
And my feelings still diggin' so deep

Your smile that lights up my day
I held your hand walking by the bay
Caught up by the moment
I ran out of words to say

We're silent but comfortable
We're in love that's undeniable
We'll bravely take the risk
I hope it's unshakeable

We're very happy, I know
But all of that were about to blow
I am slapped by the truth and reality
Realized that it was all just a possibility

I'm losing my track
It's hard to go  back
I have no strength
It's hard to breath

How can I fix this?
I'm facing such hard tests
Can someone give me a hand
I'm eager to stand

Salty water taste
Dripping on my face
Sound of pouring rain
Makes me feel pain

Small drops of water on my face
Is this what they call tear?
Caused by my huge fear
Is everything going to be clear?

The air’s cold breeze
And the drizzle of the rain
Calm me, I can see with others gaze
Perfect scenery that no one can complain

Thinking of you at night
Makes my heart and mind fight
The darkness of my quiet room
Makes my feelings so gloom

Eyes that's very heavy
Makes my sight so blurry
These feelings inside me
Makes my body so weary

Confused and lonely heart of mine
Can I still see the light shine?
Because my feelings are so blind
My heart and yours are bind

Counting the stars every night
Hoping that everything will be alright
Praying someday, wounds will heal
In God's time and God's will

Sleepless nights I end up with sighs
Don’t know what’s in my own mind
A blank expression on my face
Watching The shadows and I trace

Mind as blank as paper sheets
Like the dim lights all over me
I watch the shadows questionably
Why does my heart pound intensely