The pain was at ease and for a time i had
stillness within, but it was not to be for long.
As shady thoughts linger in my head again
my heart reaches the apogee of loneliness,
my chest stretches.
I can not forget nore i can allow such thoughts
to overwhelm me, so i locked them up.
I hid them even from those i love most,
for they deserve only joy and happiness
not the grouchiness of a troubled soul.

My ship is sunken
mast, wheel, sail
cracked, crushed, fallen.
Not now there is no time
forget your half measures
swim, breath, reach.
It's been so long
we've been through hell
and high water
you and me
but who do we want to be?
Sun up, sun down
time passes
but your memory can not
fade in the grey
it just comes and goes like
the tide in the moonlight's grace.

My loneliness i loved
not because i liked it
but there i found none
that could hurt me.
My love is like a ship
when the tempest begins
the only refuge can be
found is the port that
answers in her name.
My eyes harsh like
a wooden bark
but my heart like a rasp
with patience and time
makes this soul
slick and soft
ready to fall again
in her ardent kiss.

Obsessed with your skepticism
obsessed with your lineage
obsessed with your bitterness.
Why limit your capabilities and
fear what you do not understand?
Always trying to maintain appearance
in public so afraid what would others
think of you.
Returning back to this abandoned place
felt like resting.
Tranquil wind could be heard like a silent
mourn to an abandoned castle.
Trees, roots and soil cover what was great
once before.
I pray for you, i hope for the change in your heart.

I carry your melodies
that fill the air
and shove the waves ashore.
I carry a heart in rusty chains
burning for redemption.
I inhale
I exhale
I let you light my waning soul
and cast away the longing
i tried to bury long ago.
Your face starts to fade in my thoughts
and fear blooms within me.
I could not ask for more
just a memory of you singing happily
just the look of your sparkly green eyes.

Tired of running need to catch my breath.
Tired of shouting over and over again,
lifting burdens of syncopating curses,
no caress to be found and i move in circles.
So much noise so much fuss and all this
yelling just for a complain.
Problems like a drop lost in dirt while
there's an ocean covering the earth.
I need to stop, i need to change.
A halcyon voice from deep sea's tide,
a wooden skiff ready to sail through
the night's blackness.
Deep brown eyes whiten by moon's
reflection. Farewell...

My grief is broken
your soul burned
but not forgotten
their lies could not burn your truth
their acts could not drown your spirit.
You always had the courage to thank
only those who deserved it
even if your time burned away.
One burning heart the light you
cast on their shadows and reveal
their loneliness and rust
Now i see they're alone
with such their heart is rotten.
I thank you...