I tried. I was as good as I could be. We were best friends I thought. We were friends but with some benefits. I wasn't good enough and you left. Everyone leaves but I honestly didn't think you would. I guess I'm still niave. I told you things that I wouldn't anyone else and you threw them away like our friendship. I don't remember the last time we had a real conversation. I don't remember you wanting to be my friend. I miss you so much. I tried but it wasn't enough. I also think it has to do with her. She's always hated me. You're in love with her. You always listen to her. Did she tell you to leave me? I just want to know why Please tell me what I did wrong. I miss you. Come back to me.
You see you were very toxic But I did not know. You see I was very niave and innocent. You were my everything and I was completely madly in love. You didn't feel the same apparently. You left without saying goodbye. I miss you. I saw you everyday for a year but ignored you. I finally got over you. I don't miss you anymore. I was done with getting hurt. You came back. You want me again. You do the worst things to me. I told you I wanted you again. I don't and I'm lying to you about my feelings. I'm not sure why, maybe I want to hurt you like you did me or maybe I just want you to be happy. Maybe I want to know what you felt like when you were doing it to me. Or I could just be a heartless ***** because of what you did to me. It's funny how the roles were reversed
2:00 am I'm awake thinking of who I am and your name comes to mind I want to be me not just someone you ruined I want to be known as caring and loving But because of you I'm known as rude and hateful I guess I can't blame you I shouldn't have been so naive
I know it kills the ones who care but I can't stop It's like I'm addicted You used to be my addiction but you're gone now And I can't stop myself from enjoying the blood running down my arm After all pain makes me feel alive